SUKA SUKI AKU

my 22th birthday

2012-01-19T00:06:00.001+08:00

ok..dh pkol 12,and dgn pathetic nye..aku nyanyi lagu birthday utk diri sndiri and suddenly crying...

worst birthday present?

2012-01-18T23:41:00.003+08:00

to anyone yg bace post,just ignore me k..i am completely out of my mind rite now
miserable sgt..dun ask y,coz i will not answer it..
this is my blog,my post..aku akan lepas je kat sini

aku marah,aku kecewa,aku bengang,aku sedih,hati aku remuk...name it..sume bende2 yg buruk2,sume aku hadapi sekarang...

aku dh 22 tahun,and dh byk dugaan aku hadapi sepanjang aku hidop ni,and this one....are u kidding me!! xpernah terlintas pun...

setiap kali aku ade masalh,setiap masa aku akan ckp ngn diri 'relax mai...dunia bukannye terbalik pun..it is not that bad'
but this time,i cant even think of those words...

lucky them, they have me to cry out their heart...i guess i dunt have anyone to cry to..
ngs kat bantal je...

18th january, a day bfore my birthday...i let out my biggest cry..tears..

i try to be strong...try to be optimistic...

ya allah, aku xtahu kenapa ko bg dugaan ini
kenapa ade perkara begini dlm hidup aku
this is 2nd time aku kecewa sgt2...like my whole life dh terbalik...

aku xtahu ape hikmahnye...
just,berikan petunjuk terbaik utk aku...
i know the worst is about to come
aku takot...takot sgt..i need u badly..
give me strength...lead me ,guide me

dulu, aku jatuh teruk sgt...xnak bgon..
but u stay with me,guide me..lead me to the right way

this time...dont let me go..
its hurt ! saket sgt ,ya rabb

saje

2011-10-18T16:35:00.003+08:00

girls...bring the boys out!!

2011-10-16T22:02:00.000+08:00

saje..i am back..kejap je

2011-10-16T19:15:00.002+08:00

1. What is your best friends name?
noor najeha,siti solehah,syuhada,fatin,izzati
2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now?
ooooooooo??
3. What are you listening to right now?
one year later by jessica & onew
4. Whats your favorite number?
9
5. What was the last thing you ate?
nasi ayam
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
pink
7. How is the weather right now?
windy
8. Who was the last person you talked 2 on the phone?
ika
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
eyes
10. Do you have a significant other?
no
11. Favorite TV show?
running man?
12. Siblings?
3 i am the eldest
13. Height?
15* sumting
14. Hair color?
...
15. Eye Color?
black
16. Do you wear contacts?
nope
17. Favorite Holiday?
asalkan ngn family..jdila favorite
18. Month?
dec perhaps
19. Have you ever cried for no reason?
yup..sesaje nak nangis
20. What was the last movie you watched?
karton cloudy with a chance of meatball
21. Favorite Day of the Year?
everyday
22. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
yup
23. Can you do a headstand (not using the wall)?
mampos den
24. Hugs or Kisses?
hugs
25. Chocolate or Vanilla?
choco
26. Do you want your friends to respond to this?
xkisah
27. Who is most likely to respond to a text from you?
ntah
28. Who is least likely to respond to a text from you?
sumone yg hate me..maybe
29. What books are you reading?
currently reading half a yellow sun & life is open secret
30. Piercings?
dlu2
31. Favorite movies?
xde kot
32. Favorite football Team?
xde dah
33. What are you doing right now?
jawab soklan ni smbil layan lagu can i love you
34. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
buter
37. Dogs or cats?
cats..
38. Favorite flower?
lily
39. Been caught doing something you weren't supposed to do?
hahahhaa
40. Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex?
yup
41. Have you ever loved someone?
yup..
42. Who would you like to see right now?
family
43. Are you still friends with people from kindergarten?
yup
44. Have you ever fired a gun?
yup
45. Do you like to travel by plane?
yup
46. Right-handed or Left-handed?
leftieeeeee
47. How many pillows do you sleep with?
2
48. Are you missing someone?
yes..
49. Do you have a tattoo?
dlu la..tatoo tampal2 2..hahhah

raya tanpa atok :(

2011-08-25T11:08:00.002+08:00

puasa dh nak melabuhkan tirai, raya dh nak bukak pintu,semester lak dh memanggil2..
hoooo..xnak masok semester!

cuti 4bulan dh nak berakhir..waktu bersenang lenang bakal tamat xlame lg
lepas ni xde dah rehat2..semester 6 konpem bzie ngn nak cri tempat praktikal la..
then,abis je exam..praktikal bermula..lagi satu bende yg aku teruja takot nak hadapi.
after praktikal,final semester la..dh xleh maen2 dah lepas ni (pernah ke aku maen2..ceh4)

ready ke tak,semester mesti dihadapi.ofcoz aku risaukan future aku,but paling penting pikirkan masa kini..cabaran yg bakal muncul depan mata ni..insya Allah,aku akan lakukan yg terbaik.
aku yakin dgn diri aku!

cuti 4bulan ni,aku spent mostly kat umah n umah wan.after arwah atok pergi,wan tinggal sorang.and alhamdulillah,dpt cri orang gaji,but still aku temankan wan dpt 2 3 hari/week

i think i am a nice granddaughter.bukan la nak ckp cucu laen xbuat ape2..aku je satu2 cucu yg tgh free bersantai..so ape salahnye,berbakti utk wan.lepas ni,bile lgi dpt..bile dh sibuk,jarang jumpe.duduk ngn wan sepanjang 4 bulan ni..buatkan aku lebih rapat ngn wan..bukanla xrpat sebelom ni..aku memg rapat ngn wan n atok..cume lebih rapat lagi..aku jd teman berborak wan.
one thing i realised,she's felt really2 lonely..w/out atok

aku pn..bile duk kat kg,aku rase dekat sgt ngn atok..rindu sgt die..kekadang rase cm die ade je kat umah 2..he left us all the sudden. but,bersyukur sgt before he go,aku sempat spent byk masa ngn die.aku ingt lagi bawak die p pejabat tanah utk uruskan pertukaran name tanah kepada aku.
bak kate ayah,patot la taun lepas,atok beriya2 sgt suh aku blek utk uruskan pasal tanah die..die takot xsempat..hari aku bawak atok kuar,ari paling best.aku pegang erat tngan atok sepanjang kat pejabat tanah 2 coz atok pakai tongkat n die xberapa nak nampak

i miss him lately..haritu aku mimpikan die..die pegang erat tangan aku,same mcm hari dlu..the same touch..erat!..
i kept thinking the day he went away..hari aku nampak jenazah die..he's the best person ever exist in my life..die ajar aku byk bende..nasihat aku..
atok orang susah..but he managed to send his children to universities even to study abroad.

raya ni...akan sunyi w/out him..i dunno how this raya will turn out as..but,this is our very first raya w/out him

miss him so much

twitter activated!

2011-08-16T21:33:00.002+08:00

ok,sejak cuti nih..saya sgt aktif di twitter ye..nak cri sya,cri di tw..fb saya jrg on9..hanye cek update sejam sekali..

saya aktif kat tw coz nak tgok update kpop sy..hahahahah

lagi a few weeks je,pastu masok kolej
aku xtau la aku ready ke tak..
terjah je la cam sem sebelom2 ni..

2011-08-07T17:35:00.003+08:00

my schedule...

2011-07-24T13:26:00.002+08:00

ok..lagi seminggu sebelom puasa nak dtg and lagi sebulan lebeyh before semester bukak..haishh..

so,cuti 4 bulan ni..mcm yg aku ckp..terisi ngn sendirinya..sok ptg,aku blek kg mama coz selasa nak antar makcik aku p seremban beli barang..

then,start je bulan puasa..aku akan spent dr hari isnin smpai khamis kat umah nenek aku..bukan ulang alik lg dah..duk kat situ 4days/week...maid xsmpai2 lagi n nenek aku xmau p kl..sok,aku stuju la utk temankan die..hari jumaat smpai ahad aku akan balek pilah..

gosh,4days w/out internet..mati lorh..
DVD still xpt lagi..dh smpai kat malaysia and dlm process nak anta kat aku..insya Allah,by nexweek akan dpt..tolongla..aku perlukan dvd tu sesgt..supaya aku leh spent masa kat kg dgn tenangnya..

and pre order utk konsert DVD dh bukak..and setakat ni bru jumpe dua supplier..yg first offer rm120 include postage..second lak 122 exclude postage cost..so,nak tggu lu supplier yg laen smpai hujung minggu depan..jumpa yg ok,bru aku pilih..

jumaat ni nak p jumpe phai kejap..maybe smpai sabtu or ahad..xsure lagi.
penoh sgt schedule aku ni..aduh

but bila pikirkan balek..family sgt memerlukan khidmat aku sekarang..letih cmne pn ko kene berulang drive sume...aku rase aku kene gak buat..since aku sorang je yg free skunk..nak fikirkan secara positifnya..lepasni ko akan busie ngn semester la,praktikal la..final year la..pastu,ntah keje ke..buat ape2 ke..so,skunk ni je yg ko tol2 free bfore start bzie..

trus terang,memg aku letih..ulang alik bwk kete..tp apakan daya, people need me rite now!

bukan nak mengeluh / merungut..bukannye aku xikhlas..ikhlas!!!! just saje nak kongsi rase kat sini..

so,malam td konsert snsd kat korea..aku spent 5jam tweets mcm2 pasal konsert 2..hahaha
malam ni lak,last konsert dorang..aku feel happy!!!

cepatla DVD aku smpai!

p/s: dh jumpe kasot raya!! xyah nak beli online..hahaha..baju kurung raya pn dah ade and blouse raya pn adde..sume dh settle

i am 21 but i act 25

2011-07-17T12:23:00.003+08:00

HOW OLD DO YOU ACT?

[/] You know how to make a pot of coffee.

[/ ] You keep track of dates using a calendar.

[ ] You own a credit card

[ /] You know how to change the oil in a car.

[/] You've done your own laundry.

[/ ] You can vote in an election.

[ /] You can cook for yourself.

[ /] You think politics are interesting.

Total so far: 7

[ ] You show up for school late a lot.

[ /] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket.

[/] You've never gotten a detention.

[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday.

[ /] You like to take walks by yourself.

[/] You know what credibility means, without looking it up.

[/ ] You drink caffeine at least once a week.

TOTAL SO FAR: 12

[/] You know how to do the dishes.

[/] You can count to 10 in another language.

[/] When you say you're going to do something you usually do it.

[ ] You can mow the lawn.

[/ ] You study even when you don't have to.

[/] You have hand washed a car before.

TOTAL SO FAR: 17

[/] You can spell experience, without looking it up.

[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name.

[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out.

[/ ] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need.

[/ ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said.

[/] You can type pretty quick.

TOTAL SO FAR: 21

[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment.

[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party.

[/] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.

[ ] You have more bills than you can pay.

[/] You have been to the beach.

[/] You use the internet every day.

[] You have been outside of the -insert your country- 3 or more times.

[ /] You make your bed in the morning.

TOTAL: 25

92 truths

2011-07-17T11:29:00.002+08:00

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last Beverage = teh tarik

2. Last Phone Call = ika

3. Last Text Message = ika

4. Last Song you listened to = mistake by SNSD

5. Last Time you cried = ntah..lame dh kot..3rd januari was the worst cry scene ever

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone Twice = nope..

7. Been Cheated = ofcoz

8. Kissed someone & regretted it = no

9. Lost someone special = Yeah

10. Been Depressed = Obviously

11. Been Drunk and Threw up = haram weyh

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. black

13. grey

14. pastel pink

HAVE YOU:

15. Made a New Friend = yup

17. Laughed until you cried = ye kot..my bespren good at it

18. Met Someone who Changed you = yes

19. Found out who your true friends were = yeah

20. Found out someone was talking about you = hahaha..yup

21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = yes

GENERAL:

22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = more than 50%

24. Do you have any pets = nope

25. Do you want to change your name = puas hati ngn name saya

26. What did you do for your last birthday = kawan2 belanja the whole day

27. What time did you wake up today? = 7.45 am due to haikal's noise

28. What were you doing at midnight last night = tido dah

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for. = dia la kot

30. Last time you saw your Mother = Last friday

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = i'm quite satisfied with my life now

32. What are you listening to right now = Lucifer by Shinee

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? = never

34. What's getting on your nerves right now = unpredictable future

37. Nickname = along,mai,sarah,cik ret,robot

38. Relationship Status = Single

39. Zodiac sign = Capricorn

40. He or She = She

41. Elementary School = SK Gemereh n SK Kuala Pilah

42. High School = SMK Tunku Kurshiah

43. College = UiTM Shah Alam

44. Hair colour = Black

45. Long or short hair = ermm

46. Height = 15++ lupa dah

47.Do you have a crush on someone? = ofcoz

48. What do you like about yourself? = positive force

49. Piercings = no..

50. Tattoos = sticker tattoos when i was younger :p

51. Right or lefty= lefty

52. First surgery = lom penah lagi

53. First piercing = xdo!

54. First best friend = amira muhammad

55. First sport you joined = badminton

56. First vacation = ntah..den dah 21tahun..mano la nak ingat

58. First pair of sneakers = xpakai sneakers

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating = nope

60. Drinking = nope

61. I'm about to = do nothing

62. Listening to = Born to Be a lady by SNSD

63. Waiting for = nothing

YOUR FUTURE:

64. Want kids? = yeah

65. Get Married? = yup :P

66. Career? = accountant perhaps

WHICH IS BETTER IN A GUY/GIRL:

67. Lips or eyes = eyes

68. Hugs or kisses= hugs

69. Shorter or taller = taller

70. Older or Younger = dua2 pn ok je

71. Romantic or spontaneous = both

72. Nice stomach or nice arms = due2

73. Sensitive or loud = due2

74. Hook-up or relationship = mane maen hook up ni

75. Trouble maker or hesitant = tgh2 leh tak

HAVE YOU EVER:

76. Kissed a stranger = xpernah

77. Drank hard liquor = nope

78. Lost glasses/contacts = not wearing it

79. Sex on first date = astaga

80. Broke someone's heart= hahaha..ye kot.

82. Been arrested = by a cop? lom lgi.

83. Turned someone down = ntah

85. Fallen for a friend = ngeh4..

86. Found yourself talking in your sleep = habit aku

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

87. Miracles = Yes

88. Love at first sight = ye kot

89. Heaven = ye la!

90. Santa Claus = no such thing la

91. Kiss on the first date = xla weyh

92.Angels? = yup

nak semak ngn gambar

2011-07-07T13:54:00.003+08:00

will be broke again

2011-07-06T14:01:00.002+08:00

goodnews to SONE...SNSD 1st LIVE CONCERT DVD will be released
the one that i've waited for so long..the one that i already kept my money aside...

badnews.already spent the money on DVD Photobook..xsangka lak concertnye dvd akan kuar bulan lapan ni..bajet kuar time bukak sem nanti..leh la gune duit jpa sket..aduhaii

concertnye DVD memg aku nak sgt..aku than xbeli album dorang yg mahal2 2 semata2 nak DVD konsert ni..aduhaiii...pokai lagi la alamatnye

yg photobook nye dvd dah order from korea n akan dapat dalam lgi 2 minggu..
naseb baek la,angah owe aku 200..so,aku akan gune duit 2 utk beli dvd konsert..aku rase xkan semahal photobook nye dvd..coz,konsert nye just ade 2dvd ngn konsert photobook..

jgn lepas dorang keluarkan konsert dvd..xlama lepas 2,dorang announe nak releasekan DVD Japan Arena Tour lak..itu lagi la..memg aku nak jugak..style jepun lak,klu ade showcase/konsert memg depa akan releasekan dlm bentuk DVD..pokaiii la aku..

xpe,jgn pikir japan tour..coz tour dorang xhbs lagi..fokus kat yg dvd kuar bulan 8 ni..konpem akan beli..hahahahaahahahah

aku memg dah gile
xpe,aku xkacau duit orang..

random post..'ve been tagged

2011-07-03T23:04:00.002+08:00

red whichever suits you!

1. had a pet.

2. bought condoms

3. gotten pregnant.

4. failed a class.

5. kissed a boy

6. kissed a girl

7. used a little paper bag for lunch.

8. had a job.

9. slipped on ice.

10. missed the school bus.

11. left the house without my wallet.

12. bullied someone on the internet

13. sexted.

14. had sex in public

15. played on a sports team.

16. smoked weed

17. smoked cigarettes

18. smoked a cigar.

19. drank alcohol.

20. watched “The Breakfast Club”

21. been overweight

22. been underweight.

23. had an eating disorder.

24. been to a wedding.

25. made fun of someone for being fat

26. been on the computer for 5 hours straight

27. watched tv for 5 hours straight.

28. been late for school.

29. been late for work

30. kissed in the rain

31. showered with someone else.

32. failed my drivers test.

33. ran a km in less than five minutes

34. been outside my home country.

35. been on a road trip longer than 5 hours.

36. had lice.

37. gotten fired

38. had a credit card.

39. been to a professional sports game.

40. broken a bone.

41. been unhappy about my weight.

42. won a trophy.

43. cut myself.

44. had an STD.

45. got engaged.

46. been on a diet.

47. tried out to be on a tv show.

48. rode in a taxi.

49. been to prom.

50. played a drinking game.

51. Stayed up for 24 hours or more

52. been to a concert

53. had a three-some.

54. had a crush on someone of the same sex.

55. been in a car accident.

56. had braces.

57. learned another language

58. killed an animal.

59. been at a yard sale.

60. been to a japanese steakhouse.

61. wore make up.

62. skipped school

63. been a vampire for halloween

64. had my wisdom teeth taken out.

65. kissed someone a different race than myself.

66. snuck out of the house

67. bought porn.

68. had a virus on my computer.

69. had oral sex.

70. dyed my hair.

71. gone skinny dipping.

72. graduated from college.

73. wore someone else’s clothes.

74. voted in a presidential election.

75. rode in an ambulance.

76. rode in a helicopter.

77. caught the stove on fire.

78. got in a fight.

79. met someone famous.

80. been on vacation.

81. been on an airplane.

82. been on a boat.

83. broken something expensive.

84. had surgery.

85. kissed someone before I was 14

86. beat a video game.

87. found something valuable on the ground

88. made a survey

89. stalked someone on facebook/myspace.

90. prank called someone.

91. been to a library outside of school.

92. spent over $100 shopping in one day.

93. cut my hair and hated it.

94. peed outside.

95. went fishing.

96. helped with charity.

97. taken a pregnancy test.

98. been rejected by a crush

99. been suspended from school

100. broken a mirror.

forever 9...no sub unit please

2011-06-26T22:52:00.002+08:00

okay..mood tgh up n down skunk ni..gara2 soshi..!

up,coz ade rumor kate comeback dorang xlame lagi..august ni...xsabar ngn comeback dorang!!!!

down coz ade lagi satu rumor kate SM ade plan nak tubuhkan sub unit for Soshi...no way!!!!
mane boleh...dekat superjunior sesuai la coz dari awal dh ade sub unit..not for soshi..dorang dh nak masok 4th year...we see them as 9..and they should remain 9..tau la dorang bukan kene berpecah ke ape..cume,dorang akan ade sub unit cam SUJU,AFTER SKOOL..tp,so not soshi..kami SONE sgt membantah dgn plan ini!!!!!!!!!!!!! tidakkkk...

mintak2 rumor yg down tu xbtol...cukop2 la buat duit SM oii..tau la SOSHI 2 asset korang,buat stock price korang naek...they still can bring u millions of money as 9...no sub unit please..
klu,tgok kat tumblr n twitter...tgh panas bende ni...hahaaha

tp,rumor nampak macam weak je coz xde ape2 evidence..just rumor tarikh comeback dorang nampak cam strong sket coz schedule comeback for SM artists dah kluar..tp xkan nak caye schedule 2 la kan..cam pelik pn ade..M1 n M2 xdebut lagi pn..dh bulan bpe dah ni..hahah

lantakla...happy coz comeback dorang xlame lagi and harap2 no sub unit for SOSHI..
they are 9 always gonna be 9

hihihi...xsabar..dlm lagi 2 minggu akan dpt dvd photobook 2...ade 6dvd...total of 11hours 55minutes..bergelumangla aku ngn SOSHI...

Repost

2011-06-26T08:57:00.004+08:00

aku tgh godek blog aku dr awal post smpai skunk..and terjumpe post yg sgt menarik dan nak kongsikan lagi sekali..

ni link die..

it's not the end,it's the start of sumting new
along,adik & batu
kayuh basikal same2

post ini akan di keep updated utk sebarang post yg menarik...

AAGG is mine

2011-06-26T08:41:00.002+08:00

kid dorky leader - taeyeon

tepat pada jam 7.15 td...hahahaha..aku dah byar dah utk AAGG...ngeh4..
mama kasi gune akaun die dlu..huhhuhu..
xyah nak tggu nexweek !

alkisahnye...mama ade byk sgt keje yg melibatkan komputer ni and lepas 2 lak kene masokkan markah dekat system kementerian..so,di suruhnye aku...and lepas subuh td aku tdo..tetiba die suh bgon settlekan pagi ni gak..
nak tarik attention aku,die kate...p la bayar bende 2 ari ni...pakai akaun mama..
melompat aku dr katil..hahahahaha

order AAGG telah dihantar and insya Allah,awal julai akan dpat dr korea...!! wohooo...

ni kirenye dah kali ke 5 aku berurusan online utk brg2 korea..ngeh4..

p/s: saya xkan kasi pinjam AAGG saya pada sesape ek...harap maklom.itu bende yg sgt bernilai utk saya dan akan saya jaga tol2...(sebab mahal doh)...

Semet Kesayangan's Bond..friend like this

2011-06-25T22:31:00.002+08:00

a friend like this...

link video kat atas ni,fan made video by one of the SONE... it is a SONE must watch video..
this vid is about the bond between soshi members and what kind of friend and sister they are to each other...

one think i learnt from Soshi Bond ni...w/pn teruk or annoying/terasa kite ngn behaviour sesorg kawan 2..at the end of the day,dorang la kawan yg kite paling comfortable..dorang la kawan yg kite sgt hargai..yg kene rase happy sgt bila ngn dorang..and rase perlukan dorang

video ni aku dedikasikan kepada housemate puncak perdana tersayang!!! the power of 6! semet kesayangan...hahaha

xtau nape..bile tgok video ni,teringat terus dekat phai,aimi,yana,nana & syila!!!!
a friend like this..

yang act gile2...influence korang act gile2 gak..hahaha
yg nangis same2 korang..yg paham personaliti korang..
yg tahu kekuatan dan kelemahan korang..
yg spent masa ngn korang 2 tahun ...kongsi everything

macam2 kite kongsi kan??
kite p jalan2 same...exercise same2..makan same2..masak2 same2...berborak smpai ke pagi same2..kemas umah same2..p joging same2..buat lawak same2..berkejar kat umah same2...macm2 kite buat same2..
i wish satu hari kite dpt gather 6 of us and talk talk talk...

klu diberi peluang pilih housemates..aku nak serumah ngn korang lagi sekali..

sayang and rindu same korang..
1st sem degree...aku kesunyian tnpa korang..
2nd sem degree..kesunyian lagi bertambah..
:(

xpe,jauh mcm mane pn kite...kite ttp sayang masing2 kan!

greenlite for AAGG Paradise in Phuket

2011-06-25T19:46:00.003+08:00

hohohoh..mama dah kasi greenlite utk AAGG Paradise in Phuket!!!!
unfortunately,it is not her money:(...
aku kene pakai duit aku...and memandangkan ade duit xguna langsung kat BSN,maka akan ku tutop akaun BSN itu nexweek dan korbankan duit itu utk AAGG!!!..

mula2,agak cam berbelah hati nak beli coz aku desperate ngn tggu dvd concert korea ngn japan dorang..but,still xde hint utk dvd 2 kuar dalam masa terdekat...so,guna la duit yg ade utk AAGG ni...wohooooooooooooooo...i am freaking,damn happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kebetulan ade duit kat BSN..aku memg xnak guna duit biasiswa..though duit biasiswa lepas ade lagi kat aku,aku nak guna utk byar yuran nanti..hehehe

naseb bek la aku ingat mase form4 lu aku ade buat akaun BSN..hehehehehehe...langsong xguna akaun 2...byk gak la ade...ckop la nak beli lebih dari dari satu dvd...cantekkk punyeee...

so,plan sem depan,dpt je duit biasiswa,berjimat macam besa la..aku akan ketepikan sikit duit utk beli dvd konsert dorang...itu kene beli..and simpan duit utk p konsert dorang (kalu jadi dtg malaysia and dpt makpak aku nye permission)..hahaha

ape2 pn..sangat happy...dpt beli AAGG...

AAGG bukan satu keperluan utk aku,but ia adalah kepuasan utk aku...my self reward !!

hahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah

xmau ipad 2..nak aagg

2011-06-25T11:02:00.002+08:00

mama,along dah decide..along xmau ipad 2 (arrhhh...dugaan tol)...
aku sanggop forgoe kan ipad 2 semata2 utk aagg photobook 2..
please belikan...2++ je...drpd ipad 2 yg thousand +++...huhuh
nak aagg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAGG...i need it badly

2011-06-24T23:03:00.002+08:00

AAGG PARADISE IN PHUKET PHOTOBOOK!

finally...aagg nye photobook n dvd teaser dah kuar..
it will consist of 6dvd total of 11hours ...
nak sgt!!!
bru tgok teaser die td,aku dah meleleh air mate...and senyum gile2 la..
happy dan bahagia gile rase..
at the same nangis tgok teaser 2..bukannye sedih ke ape..nangis coz terlalu happy and sayang..
unless u're a SONE..u'll nver know how i felt..

nak sgt...ade sesape nak blanje tak..around rm240 je..
cdg nak bodek mama yg ni..tp nak ipad2...
xkan nak korbankan ipad 2 utk bende ni..aigooo..

arghhhhh.....tuhan je la tahu betapa aku dying nak kan aagg ni..huhuhhuh

i am a true sone

p/s: nak tgok teaser,click je kat link aagg 2 ek

dare to forgive

2011-06-24T12:32:00.003+08:00

dare to forgive...ini lesson yg aku dpt malam td,at 2am...mase tgh tgok oprah..
a son, killed the entire family(bapak,mak and adik)...luckily the dad selamat...
so,skunk ni that son tgh berdepan dgn hukuman gantung smpai mati..
but, the dad still forgive him!

the dad said that...the only way for you to heal from pain is by forgiveness. if u choose to forgive,u choose to change...then,u'll start to heal.

benda yg aku dpt malam td ialah...

1. its okay to get mad...
2. people refuse to forgive bcoz the refuse to let go the pain
3. people refuse to forgive bcoz of grudge

even Tuhan ampunkan umatNYA...inikan kite pulak sesama manusia!

memaafkan memg bukan benda yg senang..kekadang dari hal yg sekecik kuman pun boleh buat kite sakit and refuse to forgive...tol tak? if we refuse to forgive...we're not moving on..if we keep holding the pain, even time pun xleh nak heal kan...

people used to say...time will heal everything..ade btolnye...tp time itu mase include time utk kite berfikir,mematangkan diri dan ready to forgive...kalau mase berlalu je,tanpa kite usaha utk memaafkan dan melupakan...kita xkan pulih!

aku 100% setuju yang forgiveness gives u chance to change..and from that, u are healing...
cuba pkirkan..ape paedahnye kite nak berdendam? nak overmad kat someone...ape sebab utk kite xmaafkan dia?? even seteruk mane pn, still...mereka tu manusia..penuh dgn kelemahan dan kekurangan...

sape kite nak xmaafkan seseorang..sape kite xhukum manusia laen? before kite decide utk not to forgive,ape kate kite pkir sekejap..ade tak orang sekeliling kite yg lom maafkan kite..sedar atau tak..ade je..kite ade je buat kesilapan and mintak kemaafan..

forgiveness is not an easy thing...only a brave one can give forgiveness...
then,dare to forgive! be brave..look for changes in ur life..
if u choose to forgive,u'll give opportunity not only to the other person but also to yourself..
u're giving the opportunity to become a better person..

people have billions of reason to hate,to hold grudge..
live ur life as best as u can...

dont give people reasons to hate you!

feel & appreciate the bond with people around you...don't ever think or try to break & betray it...
that bond worth more than u can ever imagine!

good housewife...

2011-06-23T12:58:00.002+08:00

bru sebulan lebeyh cuti...dah terer dah jadi housewife...ngeh3..

rutin aku setiap minggu same je kot...
isnin ngn rabu petang,dalam pkol 5 ,blek kg utk temankan nenek aku..
then pagi esoknye 2 around 10 aku akan blek ke umah..
smpai je umah,p mesin baju...sidai baju..
and pastu siapkan lunch utk ayah aku..since lunch hanye aku ngn ayah aku je..so,aku masak simple2..
kekdang masak nasi goreng je..kekadang ade la masak lauk laen..goreng sayur ke,masak smbal ke,..ape2 je la yg menyenangkan...
klu dah malas sgt nak masak..aku p la kuar,p bungkus lauk..hahahah
pastu,aku akan angkat baju,lipat baju and klu umah bersepah..kemas la umah..
2je la keje aku sepanjang cuti ni..pastu,jumaat akan ade kelas tutor..

memg agak borink idop aku..ngadap lappy je bila dah xde keje nak buat..
tp bile dipikirkan balek..cam best gak..aku rase cam ni la rasenye jadi housewife kot..
except that aku xde laki ngn anak utk dijaga...ngeh5..

aigoooo...panjang lak cuti..mati akal aku nak buat ape!
nak kuar ngn member,masing sibuk ngn keje la,studi la..aishhh...
so,minggu ni xde p mane2 coz sabtu ni ade mtv japan music aid award!! shinee ngn snsd ade!!
nex week lak blek kg mak aku coz kazen kawen..
minggu lagi satu..xtaw lagi nak buat ape..owh,angah nak masok semester..kene anta die kot! adush...

2je la nak tulis...dah berzaman xbukak blog ni..paipai

4 bulan yg macam menarik je!!!

2011-05-25T13:47:00.002+08:00

i am back!!! hahahaah..dah lame xberblog!!..rindu gak nak membebel2 ni..

so,utk post kali ni..simple je kot coz aku kekeringan idea..

cuti 4bulan dah bermula!!!! yes ke??? ntahla..

so,a few schedule yg telah diplan..

makan,tido,online, darab ngn 3kali..hahahahah

so,isnin n rabu aku akan balek ke kg utk amek turn temankan nenek aku

jumaat lak aku ade kelas tutor pmr kat skolah lame..

hari2 laen..aku akan melangok je kat umah..online,masak ( dah berjaya..bru lepas masak nasi goreng ikan masin td!!)..tido,layan korea 24/7

cuti sekolah ni,aku akan fly ke sabah..bercuti di sana...dah lame xp sane..so,xsabar nak bercuti..

pastu,yg laen2 duk umah je la..ngadap korea24jam..

naseb baik la soshi dah start kuat tv jun ni..klu tak mati aku kebulur xtgok dorang..dah la,sepanjang sem lepas dorang xkuar tv..saket lak ati..soshi jjang!!!

so,my current interest is hoodies!!! ni gara2 penangan korea la ni..aku dah suke baju2 cam 2..malaysia ade je,tp xmenepati citerase..mayb coz m;sia xpenah2 nak sejuk kot..

setakat ni ade 3 hoodies kesayangan aku..first hoodie SNSD YURI...yg aku beli kat kedai korea..xde hoodie,but ...pepahamje la...second red hoodie SNSD beyond 9 yg macam nak mati aku mencari..akhirnye dpt beli online!!! huhhu..dealer2 brang korea terbaek la!!...lastly,bru je dpt tadi..hoodie dari sepupu aku kat USA...thanxx coz belikan !!! lawa beb...

nanti klu aku rajin,aku upload la gmba hoodie aku...

btw, pehal lak result degree lambat sgt nak kuar!!!!! saket lak ati aku...smpai bulan julai lak bru nak kuar...aku bajet jun ni kua....cittttt...

so,blom smpai sebulan..aku dah start borink..ottoke!!!...

nampak gaya nye cuti ni kene work out la!!! kang makin berlemak lak badan ni...kene start cycling,push ups,yoga,running...!! aja2!!!

kesimpulannye..selamat bercuti kepada sume warga IPTA!!! semoga sihat selalu dan jaga keselamtan!!!!

hari alam sekitar

2011-03-05T18:15:00.002+08:00

so,hari ini hari alam sekitar...hari ni geng2 kolej(aku,nana,aimi) dan plus 1, sy.farhana..kami pergi berjalan2 setelah letih berhadapan dgn test and macam2 lagi...kami juga pergi utk tenangkan mental kami sebelom berhadapan dgn macam2 presentation and paperwork yg akan menghantui kami sepanjang mac ini..

so,ktrg bertolak pagi td at 830..kami ke bukit cerakah..berjalan mendaki bukit2(basah ketiak aku) pastu naek tren die...meninggalkan bukit chrakah dlm pkol 12 kot..pas 2,kami ke tasik shah alam utk berpiknik..yummy..menu hari ni,sandwich sardin,nuggets and mehoon...(thnx kepada sy.nana kerana menjadi tukang masak yg baik punye :P)...kenyang gile2 owh...
tgh makan tenampak lak orang naek bot..trus ktrg gayat nak naek..since cuace sgtla terbaek oh..kami pn naik bot..seriusly,naik bot kat tasik shah alam memg best..tenang je kepala otak
nex time,aku nak berkayak lak..sape mau join???

dlm pkol 1lebih ktrg pn berangkat pulang..and merehatkan diri (macam karangan budak sekolah rendah pun ade ni...hihihihi)_

so,weekends ni aku xbalek since byk na keje nak kene siapkan..sedih owh xbalek,xpat p kenduri anak2 buah aku...wawawaw...
weekend ni duk bilik sorang2 coz atie n lynn mcam biase la balek umah..
so,tido lebih nyenyak sket weekend ni coz dalm minggu ni je...tiga2 kitrg ade test..so,sume tido lmbat..ngeh3

dah lama gak xbalek ni...rindu ngn mama ayah n ika...
minggu depan cdg nak balek..nak siapkan sume keje lu..

itu je kot nak cerita...tatatititutu

there is a r/ship that doesn't needs any words

2011-02-15T17:37:00.002+08:00

"there is a r/ship that doesn't need much word" by Jessica Jung@Jung Soo Yeon

100% agree dgn statement ni..macam2 jenis r/ship ade..ade yg kene fully express with words while ade yg doesn't need at all..bg aku,aku nye version r/ship ngn orang sekeliling aku..is a r/ship that doesn't need any word/much word to express how much i love or miss that person...

since kecik agy...i am really bad with expressing my feelings wheter the good/bad ones..
if i love someone..it is hard for me to express it but i'll love that person for the rest of my life (ingat 2 ye kawan2 saya semua dan semua insan yg berada disekeliling saya)

i try to be outspoken esply about my feelings but i am really bad at it..try me..once u heard how deep and much my love to you..korang akan nak rase termuntah punye..ngeh4..
aku try gak utk tunjukkan feeling aku but macam xkene je..i tried and getting hurt really bad...thats y aku suke keep je feeling aku ni (but people around me selalu buat assumption yg aku ni such an ignorant person la...xpeduli kat orang la)...i care, i do...but i can't express it..i'll get hurt nanti..aku dah rasa dah..

therefore, my r/ship with people around me doesnt need any word..to those yg understand siapa aku..terima kasih bebyk...( a lot of love and thanks to Najeha,Chua,Atin and Atie)..kite jd kawn dah masok 10years dah...and definitely our r/ship and love doesnt need any word at all..kite sgtla jarang contct each other.. but our love for each other keep growing..heheheh

saje je,nak memekak pasal r/ship ni..bru dpt semangat dari SOSHI aku..ngeh4

balek umah

2011-02-09T22:17:00.003+08:00

tetiba nak buat profile check up..ade orang anta email kat aku pasal profile ni..cam best je utk dishare..
bende akan diupdate dari semasa ke semasa..coz byk na email pasal profile ni..leteyh nak jawab sume malam ni..

btw, dah xperia x10 mini pro..awal2 menyakitkan hati coz telan kredit aku up 2 30bucks..luckily aku dah off kan sume setting2 yg bangang tu..pesanan penaja,laen kali..klu nak beli hp yg advanced2 ni pastikan akan gune sme application yg disediakan..klu setakat nak buat kol and anta msg baek beli cikai(pesanan utk aku sebenarnye)..aku ni xlayan application hp canggih2 ni..aku gune utk kol and msg je..tp since x10 ni nampak lawa pada luaran..den boli la..hik3

btw gak,semalam meronggeng ke ts bersama wani and leha..masing2 belanja masing2..best owh..
dpt puzzle 3d masjidil haram..besar punye dari solehah...thxx..love u.
matlamat utama p ts,cari barang korea..so,aku beli sweater soshi..yg dorang pakai dalam mv lagu girls' generation..aku beli mug and keychain 2..nex target..nak beli sweater beyond 9 lak..samada warna hijau,merah or kuning..tp rasenye mau wane merah since yuri pakai merah..
and utk sweater yg baru beli ni..wane putih and ade name yuri..ngeh3..nanti aku tangkap gmbar ek..aku pakaikan kat namchin aku 2 ( bear besar drpd housemate yg bernama namja chingu@boypren)..

so,skunk ni aku kat umah...coz uitm shah alam menangguhkan kuliah selama 2hari gara2 academic conference..n since ahad ni ade kenduri arwah atok :(..so balek utk tolong family buat preparation..bye3

this is my regretless mistake... i am glad i made that mistakes

2011-02-03T12:06:00.002+08:00

I’m still at the same spot/place
I’m weary from wandering by your side

Even today, as I was wandering
Day has passed again and again.
Now I’m here

You know. You know that my heart is hurting
Watching you laugh/smile makes my heart ache more

It’s my mistake for not making you love me more
It’s my mistake for loving you more than you love me
It’s my mistake for not making you love me as much as I wanted you to.

How much longer must I cry
As I’m trusting that promise

You lied to me to wait for you
Even my greedy side(for love) has grown weary/tired

You know. You know that my heart is hurting/aching
You can’t just ignore and laugh/smile like that.

It’s my mistake for not making you love me more
It’s my mistake for loving you more than
It’s my mistake for not making you love me as much as I wanted you to.

I knew I couldn’t have you
But my heart(my love for you) just kept growing
It’s my mistake for
Waiting by myself
Regretting by myself
Loving you.

Even though my heart was hurting/aching
It’s my mistake for not letting you go/forgetting you

I’m such a fool
I knew I would get hurt and couldn’t let go

it’s my mistake
Even though it could be all my fault/mistake
That’s ok. As long as you’re there…

Always…
Please forgive me for being like this.
the person) Who loved you

seeing you cry...urghh,makes my heart stop beating and makes me cry too

2011-02-02T22:42:00.002+08:00

dear you.....though we barely knew each other...really2 barely knew each other...i just wanna let u know that i love u so much

saya ni manusia yang,once dah jatuh sayang kat someone,...smpai mati saya sayang.
cume,saya sgt2 terok and xberbakat dalam meExpress kan sayang saya

just wanna let u know..
seeing u smiling...arghhh..melts me..
seeing u laughing...seems like there is a huge garden in my heart..
seeing u crying...hurt me so much
makes me crying..non stop..

wutever path that u've choosen...i'm gonna support u...coz i love you

sayang sgt2

rindu dtg lagi :(

2011-01-30T23:49:00.002+08:00

hari ini saya di rumah kerana cuti midsem..yeeehaaa.

so,byk bende happened few days ni..
first,kete kelisa coklat aku bertukar pink..not really pink,tp still pink la!..ayyo
asalnye mau tukar wane yg same,tp cine 2 dh order pink yg awal2 kitrg pilih 2:(

nex,ayah approve xperia mini aku!!! cdg mau p survey harga and beli ptg td,tp malangnye hujan lebat..tgokla,sok lusa beli...yes3!!! hp pertama pakai duit sndiri..cm xcaye je..kih3
angah pun nak tukar hp..die nak cari touchy screen..tp lom decide nak ape..
die cam tertarik ngn aku nye mini,tp bukan yg ade qwerty 2,tp masalahnye,mini aku 2 mini sgt..hahaha

klu aku jadi amek mini 2,e63 aku akan ke ika..hihihi

so,weekend ni ayah aku balik kampong tgok wan since wan decide nak duduk kg..die xnak duk kl(umah makcik aku.) katenye,bosan..die nak balik kg..since ayah aku dah officialy tukar uitm n9,so ayah aku akan gilir2 tido umah ngn kampong temankan wan..(ade hikmahnye)

so,hari ni hujan lebat nak gile2 la..so,ayah decide bawk wan balek umah umah kitrg kejap coz takot air sungai melimpah..nanti banjir lak(umah wan pernah kene banjir)...
s0,dh 2 minggu aku xjumpe wan sejak arwah atok pergi..

bila wan smpai td,rasa laen sgt..aku rase sebak sgt..coz atok is not there..selalunye,both of them akan dtg umah ktrg..bila tgok wan, aku terus rindu atok..

bru kejap td,aku lawat wan kat bilik..wan tgh sedap nyenyak tidur...
sebak aku tgok wan aku..
sedih pilu pkirkan yg wan akan duk sorang lepas ni
even ayah aku ngn mek akan tgok2 kan wan,tp keadaan xkan sama masa atok ade...

i miss him a lot..
seems like, a part of him is gone...

xperia x10 mini pro....mahu kamu

2011-01-26T22:16:00.003+08:00

xperia x10 mini pro...i really falling for you..
weirdly,i am not falling for iphone/berry2..hahaha
i've fallen for you...
ur charm...owh gosh!!!

sgtla comel..kecik miut je..
qwerty lak 2..tp,ade touchscreen..i dont like touchie2 ni la..
kene consider lek..tp aku memg jatuh cinta ngn qwerty and small size..
sgtla small...
nak sgt2..tp serba salah nak beli coz hp bru xsmpai pn stahun..wawawa..
pakai 2 hp nak?
citt...satu hp pn xterlayn...

member aku kate,xpuas klu beli 2..coz kecik
pada aku,lagi kecik aku suka..asalkan leh call and msg sudah
asalkan leh dgr lagu pun cukup
asalkan ade kamera..ngeh3

memg nak beli ni...duit baru msok,and setelah forecasting..memg duit tu dh xde tujuan lagi dah
yuran settle,buku settle..hihihih

xpe,survey dlu..than lagi belas2 minggu..habis semester..balon satu..nak gak!!
mintak permission ayah and kali ni,use my own money
wah..first time beli hp pakai duit sendiri(ofcoz la..umur dh 21 dah..xkan nak kene tanggung lagi..tp klu ayah nak sponsor pe salahnye..hihihi)

i miss him badly

2011-01-26T19:20:00.002+08:00

lately,i've been missing arwah atok so much that i always ended up in tears...

td,p SSM utk rujuk law nye projek...and time kat tgh2 ramai orang and bising2 gelak2 2 gak...aku still tetiba ingatkan arwah atok and miss him..berair mata aku...

gosh,i miss him so much and i know that,bila aku balek kampong after this,he's not gonna be there...:(

rupanya ni rasanye,bila orang yg kta syang sgt2 pergi dr idop kita...:(

the last day i spent with atok,still fresh lagi..
the day atok left us...still fresh lagi..

hhuhuhuhuhuhu...i am a sad girl...

p/s: td usha xperia mini pro...lawa doh...harga reasonable..i think i wanna get it

it's not pathetic...

2011-01-23T10:15:00.004+08:00

my life is not pathetic,lifeless, or boring...mind your own word..
my definition of happiness, enjoyment are way too different from all of you..
please k...i dont give a damn bout ur life..so, dont u give a damn bout mine
kain sendiri tolong jaga ye..
saya xsusahkan idop kamu pn...

my own version of life..!!! they are my energy pills...!!!
I am proud to be SONE (official fan club of GIRLS' GENERATION)

xsalah pown,jgn la kritik or marah

2011-01-22T13:57:00.003+08:00

sweet tak gmbar ni???? huhuhuhhu...aku lukis sndiri tau...2009..aku lukis ni time 2009..awal taun 2009...time perfact buat preparation utk LeaLean(xsilap aku la...) kak chik,suh kiterg lukis cam budak2...hahaha..event ni la paling best...fresh lagi memori2 indah itu...orange and red theme!!! hahahaha..best2!!!

iye,saya rindu perfact!!! salah ke?? klu pada ur point of view..salah..lantak lah..
jgnla nak kritik2 saya..kritik or xpuas hati dgn rasa rindu saya ni..
xsalah la klu nak rindu someone or sumting..
if u urself refuse or reluctant to miss 'it'...it is ur choice..
dont critic on other's choice..sakitla...
suka ati saya la nak rindu sape...saya pilih utk rindu..
bukannye sakit pn kalu rindu..dah xsakit..huhuu

hahaha...emo lak
ape2 pn,kiut bebeno gmbar kat atas 2
eventhough xde talent melukis...tp for the purpose of tadika mood,kene la lukisan 2..fuyooo
terer la..

hari ni,duk kat kolej for the first time..xbalik umah
too many dscussion and assignment..
buat slow mellow sambil layan girls' generation
again.they won daesang...they've repeated the 2009 success!!!
congratzzz girls...saranghae..

Happy 21st to me...love light,where are you?

2011-01-19T22:53:00.002+08:00

happie birthday to me
happie birthday to me
happie birthday to me...
happie birthday 2 me..

gedixxxxxxx....aegyo melimpah...ngok!

today,the happiest and slightly an unfortunate day for me..
unfortunate kerana...pagi tadi,jatuh toilet...jatuh yg terok sgt,smpai bahu aku lebam,peha n lutut lebam..sakiiitttt tau..

so,pre birthday...ngeh3..malam semalam,aku atie chua n atin (skkp tks besties...the best 5 ..naje xjoin)..kiterg p celebrate birthday aku kat jm beriani sek7...aku blanja dorang since birthday aku.
macam2 la makan..smpai nak terburai perot ni..pastu makan kek aiskrim..sedap ooo..
at 10 balik bilik and lepak ngn aimi n dayana...borak pasal buku la,kawen la,hantoo la..hahaha

pas 2 balik bilik..seyesly,dek kerana berjalan and makan byk aku keletihan gile..at 1145 aku dh tidur dh..then masokla msg2 la..mata dah ngantok..setakat tgok kejap2 aje..then tidur ngn nyenyak nye..xpasal2,ade 2 orang makhlok ni dalam gelap pakai telekong muncul depan muka aku renjis kan air sabun satu badan aku...cisss...roommates aku!...then aku bangon and makan kek yg dorang dh beli(kek lagi....aku ni xsuka makan kek,tp disebabkan hari jadi aku..aku telan la dgn rela hatinya)...tgh2 makan kek,kene simbah ngn air sabun yg penuh ngn ape2 sabun ntah termasokla colgate...ish2..habis kebasahan rambut aku..jadi keras tau :(...then after makan kek,kene sembur lak ngn bedak...seriusly,aku memg wangi gile malam td..ngeh3..

then,lepas melantak sume,kami bertiga pergilah ke toilet..kat tmpat amek wuduk 2,aku cuci la rambut aku..tgh2 cuci rambot,atie tolak aku...terhantuk kepala aku kat dinding...then,hbs satu badan aku basah coz memg totally aku terduduk and duduk bawah paip..apela nasib badan..kuyup satu badan...sejuk dowh..menggigil aku..pastu,dorang bawk cabot lari tuala aku..berkejar la aku satu teratai 2...hihihi..then,mandi biasa2 je and masok tdur...hik3

pagi td lak bangon,jatuh toilet...aduh...pegi kelas...lin hantarkan naek kte coz kaki aku xlarat..yg xbestnye,lif ngong...terpaksa memanjat tangga saas...
smpai kelas..dpt hadiah daripada DIDI....sgt comel itu turtle..then dpt lak,rantai dari liyana n falihin..lawa..terharu...yana,i miss u la!!..

then after kelas (at1230)...klasmate buat party...belikan kek secret recipe utk aku,aimi and tia (januari girls)....sedap doh...then aku dpt lagi satu cheese kek dari team AAR...thanks korang..o tgh hari td celebrate ngn liza n klasmates...hbs je party,balek kolej tidur...at 4,date lak ngn housemate tersayang...phai,aimi,nana, and plus liza..dorang blanja aku chicken chop...ngeh4...pastu,kek td ade lebih,so kongsi ramai2..kiterg p PAS..and aimi bwak kete...terer la!!!! hihihi..at 6 aku balek..and online..bru je td,makan nasi USA..lin blanja(roommate aku)..
hari ni,satu sen pn xkuar...yeeeehaaaaaaa!!!

hari ni best coz makan terlalu byk kek smpai nak termuntah..
hari ni best coz dpt byk wish...
wish ayah n mama sgt special
mama kate 'love u endlessly'
ayah lak ' ayah sayang along'
almost cry bila bace..terasa bersemangat utk improve idop ini and jadi anak yg terbaik utk makpak aku...ALONG SYG MAMA AND AYAH

KEPADA SUME YG WISH...TERIMA KASIH BYK2...
TERASA DIRI INI SGGT DISAYANGI!!!

kepada kamu yg aku sayang...saya rasa awak xtahu birthday saya hari ni..and saya pun xtahu bile birthday awak...tp saya sgt nanti2 wish dari awak,w/pn tahu wish drpd awak xkan smpai tahun ini...love light,where are you? i'm missing you and loving you every second though i have no idea who are you..

so,for your birthday yg saya xtahu bila..saya ucapkan SELAMAT HARI LAHIR,MOGA PANJANG UMUR,MURAH REZEKI AND JADI LELAKI YG BERJAYA,BAIK DAN SOLEH.

just wanna let u know,even i dunno you...i've started loving you...

2011-01-16T21:11:00.002+08:00

xtaw nak post ape...tp rase a lil bit sunyi...this sem,sunyi tnpa liyana...she's my energy pill...miss you like crazy girl!...rase sunyi! padan muka! tula,p tendang orang jauh2 sape suh..p kuar dr persatuan2 sape suh...kan dah sunyi..padan muka!

weekend ni balek umah..and feel lil bit of loneliness...out of nowhere, i started to miss PerFACT. out of nowhere..maybe coz recent dscussion aku ngn phai pasal perfact..though just mention skit je pasal perfact,tp tetiba aku rindu sgt dgn perfact yang xbape nak perfect 2(jahat :P). dunno y, this weekend,my mind keep thinking about perfact, the memories that we used to share,the regret that used to keep inside,and my wish for perfact(kalu la bende 2 xberlaku....mengeluh panjang ni)
damn! aku memg gile2 rindukan perfact..u make me a better person and sadly,i ended up being not so good person! arghhhh...bodoh2,nape la otak ni asyik pikir perfact je..huhuhu.dahla gmbar2 perfact sume dh xde..shit tol..(bende baik gak,coz nanti mesti banjir klu tgok gmbar 2)
ottoke...kenapa jadi camni...frankly speaking,my life become upside down due to perfact. i am having a fobia of loving people...gosh,i really miss them

sadly, ptg td..mimpikan arwah atok...:( (nak nangis dah ni)...rindukan arwah atok...rindu sgt2..he's like the 2nd closest men after apak aku...atok....:( :(
trus terang aku ckp,masa atok meninggal..masa spent masa kat kg..i really need sumone to hug..a shoulder to cry on..unfortunately,i have to be strong...for my family,my aunties..i felt responsible of being strong and support each other..and during that time, aku je cousin pompuan yg paling tua yg ade(yg rapat ngn sume cousin2 kecik2...kak lisa n kak la ade,but they are adults and not really close to the kids and we barely seen each other)...aku rase ade huge responsibility to calm my cousins..to help my aunties with the chores...argh...i really miss atok

p/s:mood memg kurang baik..bukan marah or ape..just rase sebak and sunyi

get a life! i guess i am back!

2011-01-12T21:21:00.002+08:00

ntah kenapa malam ni gatal lak nak berblog..dah lame tol xberblog..

get a life! hahaha..tula ayat yg dihamburkan leh 2 orang bespren aku..naje and solehah..
get a life atau kate senangnye utk aku ni...mai,sila la bersosial skit drpd terperap dalam bilik ngadap laptop and buku mcm sem lepas..ngeh2
i guess, the boring side of me is back...borink ke? well,klu dr pov of outsider,my life may seem a lil borink or pathetic but, in my pov...i love it..the way i enjoy my life is by staying in the room and doing things by myself...booyaa

so,today...kelas hbs at 1230..jadual hari rabu memg best...byk masa utk rehat ptg 2..ngeh3..
but today,the whole kelas p jj bukit raja to have a lunch gathering with aly since die mau fly nex month..so,kami melantak kat kenny rogers..nyam2..then,after melantak..some of us balek(aku la 2 and geng2 nerd aku) while the rest enjoy maen bowling kat PAS...selamat berenjoy kengkawan..aku dah ckop leteyh p jj 2..

so,b4 p jj...solehah sebenarnye plan mau ajak aku p jj gak utk tgok wayang..so,cepat2 la aku gtaw die yg...dalam mimpi la klu die nak aku p tgok wayang ni..hahaha...aku memg malas nak kluar2 ni..duk bilik tidur,ngadap snsd, buat assignment lagi best..jahat tak aku?hahaha

so,bru 2 weeks sem start and macam fine je stkat ni..kolej pn ok..aku duk ngn bespren dr skolah rendah aku..(liyana xde!!!!)..klas pun ok,jadual pun cun..
i guess ,life aku cam sem lepas bermula la kembali..hihihihi

sebenarnye aku tgah tggu jpa masok ni..pas 2 mau angkot wanie ke times square..mau ke kedai korea utk beli barang2 snsd..hahaha

patotnye malam ni,,,aku p silat kat puncak..alop n naim ade ajak..tp...ntahla.
aku sebenarnye xde alasan nak bg..just hati ni cam xnak p..jahat again
ape yg aku sedar,sejak insiden bersama perfact..hati aku makin tawar utk aktif dgn mana2 persatuan lagi (w/pn aku tau silat memg xcam perfact langsong..jauh lebih baik) but still,the fobia is still there..

fobia aku ni je...aku fobia utk rapat sgt ngn orang..bila dah rapat,jatuh sayang...bila terluka,memg terok terluka..susah nak padam..2yg aku malas..

so,kepada2 yg berkenaan..maafkan saya.saya tahu sejak sem lepas lagi saya berperangai pelik dan tidak boleh diterima langsong kepada aar and silat..sowie..saya MUNGKIN FOBIA..alasan saya memg xkukuh...ntah..saya xde alasan..inilah saya kot..

2 aar,sowie sesgt coz xdpt join gathering ari tu..nak sgt join and at that moment i really needs u guys..thanx for understanding my situation at that time..

for all my wrongdoings...my apologize may seem not enough at all...but,just wanna let u know..that my love to all of you never fades away..we may be separated now by accident or purposely (by me)..but,that doesnot mean that i dont love u anymore..i love u guys...still do,and will forever loving you..

dunno wut to say anymore..i am trying to improve myself..
trying to improve my pointer..mudah2han pointer ok lagi utk sem ni..

p/s : to syila..sowie xreply msg..as usual,kredit xde..love u 2 darling

life...people comes and go...just like that

2011-01-08T19:18:00.002+08:00

dah berbulan2 lamanyer aku xupdate blog ni...klu ikotkan hati,memg nak update ape2 pn..but,ade sumting yg aku simpan and nak lepaskan kat sini..

semester baru je start...this new sem started not that good..

first of all, my beloved roommate, Nurul Liyana Kasman...left me..totally unexpected twist in my life. totally unpredictable!bygkan...aku spent 2 year and a half as her roommate..dari start diploma smpai la masok degree..aku tidur berdua ngn die..die la yg paling kenal aku..ape2 cite,sume aku story kat die...she's like a sister 2 me..but,due to unexpected circumtances, she had to leave me..hati ni remuk doh! eventhough aku tau,sooner or later aku maybe dpt jumpe die,but the fact that kiterg ni terpisah oleh laut china selatan..so heartbreaking.i love her so much that it is hard for me to let her go...but then,i learnt that...one day, we need to let people that we love go..whether forever or temporarily..

the next thing is...the most recent and heartbreaking one...
alfatihah buat datuk tercinta, modh kharudin bin ali..
smpai hari ni,aku rase cam xcaya yang atok dah pergi..
atok meninggal hari isnin lepas at 840 due to stomach ache..
last the whole family jumpe atok,2hari sebelum 2...on saturday,1st january time Alang's wedding reception..atok sihat..cume demam sikit je..
ingat lagi on that day,borak2 ngn atok pasal new sem yg dah nak start and tangkap gmbar atok gune kamera baru...:(
hari isnin atok sakit perot and kene masok hospital..after that, he's gone..
it is a very shocking news to the whole family..
only maklang,paknjang,pakngah je sempat jumpe:(
at 9pm,ayah jmpot aku ngn angah dari kolej trus ke kampong..
aku menangis trok gile..separuh dari diri aku seolah2 hilang..
aku rapat sgt ngn atok..sume,grandchild rapat gile ngn atok..
cuti je,mesti balik kampong..and our family jenis suka buat gathering,so kiterg selalu jumpe..sadly, on 1st january was our last meeting..

smpai kampong at 11...seeing my aunties and wan, buat aku rase terok sgt..i can't bear seeing them crying..aku nangis xhenti2...the whole family are there...only zira je xde,coz die kat USA..alhamdulillah,yg laen sempat balik and tatap wajah atok buat kali terakhir..

it is really heartbreaking,tgok wan,auntie2 aku and ayah aku nangis...it is really hard for us to accept at first bcoz sume orang dlm keadaan terkejut..atok is in a good health,good condition :(

walau ape2 pn, atok tetap pergi juga...but he still remain in our heart forever...disebabkan aku rapat ngn atok,sumtimes aku rase atok masih lagi hidup..masih lagi ade dikampong...:(
aku xtaw camne lagi nak express perasaan ni...
hancur berderai hati ni...
separuh diri aku hilang...
masih lagi memujuk hati ni

moga2 taun ini taun yg baik dan penuh dengan keberkatan...

atok;
along janji...along akan belajar bersungguh2,rajin2 and dpt kejayaan yg cemerlang!
terima kasih kerana jadi atok along
terima kasih kerana didik anak2 atok dengan baik sekali
terima kasih kerana didik ayah menjadi seorang lelaki yg sgt baik..
terima kasih kerana berikan ayah kepada along...
terima kasih atas didikan atok selama ini...

along sayang atok

rekod masih bersih!

2010-11-28T12:11:00.002+08:00

ok..ni topik kami semalam..topik kengkawan aku masa p majlis kawen senior kami...so kire cam small reunion la semalam..semalam je duk borak pasal kawen..sape kawen dlu la..status sekarang cmne..hahaha

bak kate method' rekod masih bersih lagi..' hahaha
aku pun same gak oii...'rekod universiti masih bersih lagi...rekod sekolah je tercabar sket..ngeh3'
semalam memg kelakar la...macam2 topik kuar..pasal reunion nex year la
pasal reunion,memg aku bersemangat..aku tgh draft kan kertas kerja gitu..nak draftkan biro2 yg terlibat coz aku xnak buat keje sorang macam dlu!!

so, reunion akan dtg akan diadakan di pd..kite akan tido disana!! dan kali ni diharapkan sume bakal hadir..so,nexyear kami dh 21..kirenye gempaknye reunion la b4 ade yg akan menjamah nasi minyak..aku leh guarantee by 2012 akan adenye kad jemputan kawen dari budak2 tks batch 03-07//tp sah2 la bukan aku ye...

yg kelakarnye plak..ade orang kata ada taman bunga sekarang kat aku..citt..
ade kate aku dh berubah sket taun ni esply sem lepas..

so,utk makluman...lom ade ape2 taman pada saya ek..
saya berubah coz saya selesa ngn perubahan ini
bukan kerana influence mana2 mamat (kecuali mamat2 artis yg aku gilakan..hahaha)

saya berubah kerana saya sendiri inginkan perubahan!..hahahaha

ok,sok dh nak p shah alam for konvo!!! mals ooooooooooo...xnak oooo

i am a girl on the edge of technological breakdown

2010-11-27T21:46:00.002+08:00

sadly, my lappy is completely facing with major technological disaster!!! suck! shit!

tgh sedap2 aku gune semalam,leh lak pagi ni...screen aku xelok lak!!! dah la xbuat ape2 backup! bangang tol!..then,td p jumpe la pakar komputer,sadly screen rosak!!! klu nak tukar,gonna cost me 700-800!!! what the shit la!!..dah la bru lepas donload lagu2 best and tv shows best..lom sempat lagi transfer kat hardisk!!! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..memg aku angin tahap bangang dh ni

aku xleh idop tnpe laptop aku...handphone aku, aku xkisah sgt..lantak la..tp not my laptop..
byk bende penting dlm tuuuuuuuu..
lagu2 favorite aku...yg bru donload..aduhhhhhhhhhhhhh..memg bangang la!

pas tu,semalam bru lepas donload tv shows snsd..and now bende 2 dh ngong!!
arghhhh..

so,skunk..laptop aku kat sorang pakcik ni..die tgok2 kan lu and estimate cost!..
klu ikotkan hati..aku malas dh nak repair..bru kuar 300 beli bateri baru..now, kene kuar agy cost for the screen!! esok lusa..ntah la..

mama dah bg green lite utk beli baru (use my own money)..arhhhhh..
buntu..
aku xkisah die nak rosak,tp aku nak sume bende2 dlm tu..lagu2 aku,gmbr,cite2 best...tiiidaaakkk

ngong la cuti ni..
kuar duit utk kete la, laptop la..melayang duit den

i am completely on the edge of technological breakdown!!

wish upon a star

2010-11-23T00:03:00.002+08:00

okay..lagu ni dah terngiang2 kan telinga ni..ntah sape nyanyi ntah..asyik dgr je kat starworld! ngeh4

so,dh masok minggu ke 2 cuti..borink tp aku akan nikmatinye sehabis baik
bila pikir balik nak ke shah alam nanti and start new sem...aigoo
i hate it..rase cam nak quit study je!!! leteyh owh blaja...shit tol

ok,today...as usual aku xbuat ape2..
tido.makan(kurang..coz aku diet..hahaha//berat dah turun!) and online
nowadays,aku habiskan masa aku tgok tv series..
i spent a lot on them
kekadang layan korea like HEECHUL OPPA!!! aku gilakan die..
kan aku pernah mentioned..aku memg suka laki yg cam lembut2 and girly ni..hahaha
tp bukan pondan k..

nex,klu dh termuntah layan heechul,aku layan we got married la..couple yong hwa and seohyun..best!!!
then,aku spent masa habiskan sume episode the big bang theory..all the four seasons!! DONE!
now,spent masa kat castle..season 3..and tgh patah balik season 1..hihihi
sementara vampire diaries tgh cuti,so aku curang dan layan cite laen
then,aku layan gossip girls..layan season 4 coz season 3 is the most hated season kecuali dh nak hbs...hihihi..and rewind balik season 2 and 1 yg best2 nye scene..
then,aku layan lak tv series cougar town, and how i met ur mother..byk oww mau hbiskan..ngeh3

after konvo,aku akan lemaskan diri bersama chuck and sarah!!! tgh tggu supplier aku dari sarawak balek..(leh je aku donload..tp malas!!)

so,td kete masok wad..utk ketuk2 akibat kemek2 yg terlalu byk..cdg mau sembur cat sekali,tp xsempat utk siap time nak shah alam..since akan naik ke shah alam by 29nov untill friday..so ketuk je la kete tu dlu and sambil p pilih warna utk cat baru..awal2 beli dlu pilih harvest yellow..then hari ni tukar lak ke warna pinky chocolate..ala2 pink tp xpink sangat!!!
disebabkan kereta ini,melayang duit aku more than a thousands(padan muke! sape suh berjimat sem lepas smpai duit melebih2 kat akaun tu)..hahah..so byar installment kat mama..aku nak settle kan dlu yuran nexsem and yuran kolej..ngeh3

disebabkan xde kete utk 2 3 hari ni..so terperap je la kat umah..xberani lak aku nak drive kete besar 2..hihihihi

so,nexweek konvo..malas pun ade,xcited pn ade..xcited coz nak jumpe kawan,malas coz ramai manusia..baju konvo bru siap td but a little big..so,kene la alter sket..(dh kurus SIKIT!! :p)
and skunk tgh bingung utk tudung..tudung yg mama beli 2 seems macam xkene and makes me look old..so,kene cari new one..kasut konvo xyah nak beli..sarung je mama punye:P

tu je kot..hehehehe..nk tido dh..tido kat loteng sedap ooooo...
xnak bangon aku!! lena sgt

love.love.love

2010-11-18T16:54:00.002+08:00

so today, dgr soundtrack gossip girl season 2 last episode...love.love.love

for the record; at the end of the day...other than family, bestfrenz,...housemates are the best!!!
to all my housemates...phai,syila,nana,aimi,yana...sem ni,i realised that being away from u guys are really suck!! i miss you guys so much...we are not living together anymore..barely seen each other..everytime we met, it like we havent met more that a year!!! seriusly,i am so happy bile dpt jumpe ngn korang..even ,dkt kaki lima..i am so happy bile dpt pelok korang..
at the end of the day, korang la the best and the most understandable ones! heheheeheh

u know wut..birthday suprise yg korang buat utk aku, last year was the best i ever had!!! miss u guys so much!!!
i feel a lot of love between us..

i dunno bout u guys, but i need u guys..thru happiness and sad...i need u as much as i need my family and my bestpren...:P

p/s : atok saya sakit and dimasokkan ke hospital..doakan supaya atok saya kembali pulih..
along sayang atok..
maybe away for a few days coz nak jaga atok kat hospital..
bye

...

2010-11-12T00:24:00.000+08:00

byk bende nak ckp sebenarnye dalam blog ni
byk bende nak luah,express,marah2,suke2..

tp,tiap kali taip je,msti akan cancel kan
dh berpulun draft dahni
xde satu pun yg aku publish lagi
ape kene ek aku ni

...

2010-11-10T23:17:00.001+08:00

sumtimes,life is better when u're alone

tolongla

2010-10-16T23:24:00.002+08:00

ini weekend saya
after a month saya xbalek
after a month saya rindu kat family
jgn ganggu weekend saya
jangan la weyh
saya nak rehat
saya nak happy

korang xmembantu langsong la

cam ni la yerk, klu ade...ade la
xde xde la..
maybe itu yg terbaik
saya nak ape yg terbaik utk saya

ape2, klu memg ditakdirkan kite xbersama lagi
korang sume adalah the best thing ever happened to me k
the best part
sayang kat korang xpernah luntur
cume saya nak yg terbaik utk saya

my hottest

2010-10-15T23:51:00.001+08:00

i'll be back

2010-10-15T23:43:00.002+08:00

a lot thingssssssss have happened lately
bitter and sweet

one thing for sure..i got hurt so badly
and foolishly,get recovered so quickly

one thing for sure...i am no longer myself
i felt alone...which i love,like and enjoy it
a good alone feelings

i felt i have no to bother
bad attitude,sarah

completely focus on my studi
i mean,competely
i love exams!
i love books

when i returned home, i am normal again
i laugh,i shout, i smile...
the real me

at the end of the day...family is ur best medicine

p/s: dont force me...it is not gonna work
yes,i do admit i'd disappointed a lot of people
but none of you understand
i explained! none of understand
a few...only a few understand

i require no understanding at all
not anymore
if u choose not to understand, then go on
i need no understanding...
just a little consideration...a little

i'll be back to this blog
to charge the dead battery
i'll be back

don't force me to entangle with...
don't
wutever my decision, it is the best for me
though u disagree...

i just like the way it is...

i just tired of being entangled with people, and getting hurt at the end of the day

i am nice! please dont take advantage!

breathe again

2010-10-05T17:33:00.004+08:00

seeing u, makes me breathe again
seeing u,hearing ur name...makes my mind at peace
makes me breathe again

just u...all the terrifying thoughts disappeared
just u...and all my worries already gone

u make me worryless
u make me breathe again
u make me think again
u make me dream again
and u make me fall in love again

although i know, having u is impossible

we're in the same shoes..both get hurt

2010-09-28T22:06:00.004+08:00

confession of today;
i am completely being myself for this whole semester
ini lah saya
macam ini lah saya...

and i realised, i hurt u so much...so much
aku sedar,bukan xsedar..
just,aku xkisah..
aku jenis xamek kisah k

i have my own reason2
and i know u wont accept any of them
wont understand it

just so u know

i still love u k
still love
but,driften apart...is wut i prefer..

it is hard

2010-09-25T23:37:00.001+08:00

it is hard to be patient all the time
it is hard to keep positive

it is fine
i am trying...
positive thinking always work
just have to put more effort on it

come on,mai!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and this is how i express life of mine

2010-09-19T14:37:00.007+08:00

a whole new chapter!

2010-09-17T23:19:00.003+08:00

remember this ;

" if others can do...y can't u?"

' if others can do...u can do better'

" just believe in urself...u'll make it"

' keep ur head in the game...focus and u'll reach the destination'

' be strong...don't ever give up'

' u've been trapped long enough, it is time to free urself '

' u gonna make it...'

' never believe in IMPOSSIBLE '

' yes,u can! have a faith '
be strong
be strong
be strong
be strong

avoid the temptation!
be strong

be strong

this is it
u'll gonna make it
just believe in urself
even others don't
don't give a damn bout them

ignore the pain
forget the pain
deal with the pain
it's fine
u'll get hurt now,tomorrow, the day after
it's fine
in the end, there'll be no more pain
it will be the smell of success
the sweetness of success
deal with the pain
no matter how hurt it is
deal
u'll get heal by time

u can do it
u gonna make it
yes you are

2010-09-17T13:05:00.003+08:00

"she's lost...nowhere to be found. she's lost and desperately needs a break. she's lost and suffering. she's lost and suffocating. she's lost and need to be alone. she's lost and needs a listener, but who? she's lost again and nowhere to be found. she'll come back. a new one. a modified one. she need to be healed. she's lost but has a faith that she's gonna be alright. time, all she really needs. she's lost again and this time, it is the worst among the worst. wait patiently for her. give her time,chances and spaces. wait for her..."

memg aku dah meletop

2010-09-15T21:30:00.002+08:00

aku dh meletop...bkan kat luaran,tp kat dalaman aku dh meletop
hati ni sakit melampau sgt2
puas dh nangis td..! shit tol
tau la, mata aku ni lame xkene cuci...
amek kau...trus nangis td
bersih mata aku

memg tgh panas skunk ni!
dh xde empati lg kat aku
aku memg dh xconsider baik bruk
aku sakit hati melampau!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

phai and angah tagged saya di fb

2010-09-15T21:22:00.002+08:00

25 random things abt me...

pompuan
comel la gak
first impression on me = SOMBONG
bad hot tempered
xsuke dendam tp suka simpan dalam hati
kuat nangis...sensitif
feelingless...
low self monitoring
love six pack man!..yeaks!
say no to PICKING UP THE PHONES(kesian pakwe nanti)
say no to LAYAN MESSAGE LAME2(kesian pakwe den)
kasar...
kecoh...mulut bising
blurr,lumpy,lembap,lurus
promote TIDUR YANG MENCUKUPI DAN BERKUALITI
pandai :P
single lagi and no intentions to look for anyone...waiting:P
cepat bengang....kurang penyabar
positif thinker!
Type A blood
ade kete and tanah sdiri:P
SAYA SUKA MENYENDIRI !!!!!!!!!
makan.makan.makan.
hujan!...best
hating sumone is as easy as loving sumone!..yeay

ape kne ni

2010-09-14T17:34:00.002+08:00

pehal? pehal? pehal?
ko pehal?
nak ngamok je?
nak emo2 ni...
ko pehal rasa cam nak blasah orang ni?
ko pehal asyik lari je ni?
ko pehal?
mental ke?
gile?
xbetol dah ke?
bangon la weyh
bukannya ko dah xlarat agy
bangonla pemalas
ko ni menyakitkan hati je

ko pehal arr?
rase cam nak bunuh ko pn ade gak
ko pehal?????????????????????????????????????

malas

2010-09-13T11:38:00.001+08:00

aku makin malas utk berblog akhir2 ni
smpaikan terpikir utk delete blog ni pn ade gak
malas...

how to express it?

2010-09-08T00:19:00.002+08:00

how...
how to express to the one we love,that we are really hurt by words and actions
the words that came out from mouth...are really damn fatal
killing me in the inside...!

i'm trying to change here
no need to mock me
i'm aware that i have to change
i am aware of it
i'm trying here
i can't change in a split second
changes need time
i need time
i want to change
i am on it
just hold on me okay
be patient
support me
don't insult me!
don't look down on me!
it hurts!!!
a lot!
my heart feels like breaking into pieces
what hurt the most..it comes from the person that i love
it hurts!...like shit hurt!
it hurts!
and i can't scream at you! insult you back! bcoz i love you!

just stop
please...
i am begging
i am still patient enough to keep it
still
don't let me explode
don't...

stop!
u jerk!
stop!
keep your mouth shut!
that's all i need
don't let me hate you and talking shit to you
don't let me...coz you already knew and used to face it
when i am really mad,nothing can't stop me...
don't let me put my hand on ur face
don't

u suck!

ape kene saya ni...

2010-09-07T16:52:00.003+08:00

ok..weird things happened to me recently;

1. aku inaikan rambut n jari..so not me
2. i started to wear jeans..not real jeans la..cotton jeans,still not me la..
3. i just spent some money on shoes yg memg bukan style aku....ok,b4 this utk raya aku plan nak pakai crocs murah yg aku just beli a day b4 nak balik..ala,kasut tutop yg cam apek2 2..biasa2 je..but the, smalam..aku ke jj utk shopping raya..while teman angah n yana cari kasut,mata aku ternampak la satu kasut denim ni...cantik, tp shockly aku try and decided to buy it..liyana kate kasut 2 lawa..adik2 aku pn kate same gak..then, yana kata awat xbeli je wedges..then aku jawab la..aku beli ni pn dh kire bagos la ni..kire perubahan besar la gak..hehehehe..so,aku beli la kasut 2..memg feminin la sesgt..xheels pown..tp,memg den terkejot bila aku decide nak kasot 2

4. terakhir..tetiba lak ade keinginan nak pakai subang/anting2...i must be mad!!!!!!!!!!!!!...teringin je,tp lom bertindak ape2 lagi..

fuh3...memg pelik la aku kali ini...cit3..

pelik but it is really happening..

inai

2010-09-05T22:29:00.000+08:00

unexpected! so not me k...
unfortunately,i did it...no turning back..aigo

ntah nape,tetiba aku nak berinai lak raya ni
so,td aku berinai la rambut and jari...
hahaha..kelakar ya amat la oiii...memg sah2 bukan aku dowh..
ape la kne ngn aku ni..pening2

i got you...my best cloth..yeehaa..eun ju

2010-09-04T17:29:00.003+08:00

ok..today merayap ke bahau@kiara square bersama ika dan yana...coz ika teringin nak pizza n nak cari cardigan..kami merayap la kesana...memg tgh ramai orang coz mcm2 booth raya telah dibuka..

so,tgh pusing2..aku termasuk kan diri kat satu kedai cina ni yg jual clothes design from hongkong,korea..etc la...so,lawa2 la..

tgh belek2 utk ika n utk aku...ternampak satu kemeja/blouse..ntah le..wane cam ijau2 askar...baju die biasa je,tp aku suke style die n labuh die..dpn ngn blakang labuh tp blakang laboh xtra sket..baju 2 lak nampak cam besar, tp sgt la ok..so, was2 nak beli..after pkir2 ,akhirnye terbang la 50 aku...hahaahah

conclusion,xnyesal beli baju ni..coz aku suke style die
cam style dlm cite korea
rase cam eun ju ade pakai la dlm cs...hahaha

i likeeee

quotes for the waiting

2010-09-04T07:14:00.004+08:00

"fall for you is not a sin, but it is impossible to have you"

" seeing you from a distance,makes my heart smiles"

"i don't know how to describe it, but i've hold my feeling for you since forever"

" i can't admit and express it to you, it is the best to keep it in my heart...my love"

" i will never stop loving you, till i realised that you're not gonna be mine forever"

" i think you like me as much as i do...but we keep in grow in our heart,refuse to let it go"

"i'll wait for you, you're the best for me though i'm not yours"

" it is hard to love someone who is not ours to have"

" you've met my every definition of dream guy, but i never met yours"

" i miss you , still miss you though you're in front of me"

"if and only if i can as good as you, as perfect as you,my dear"

"you, the one who i love...i've fall for you everyday"

" if we met again, and my happiness is still you and your hapiness is me, lets love each other"

"loving you secretly is much more better as you have no reasons to hurt me"

" i'll pray for us"

" you're a not a dream...you're my reality"

" i'll wait for you,i'll love you by myself until it is time to let you go"

it has to be you

2010-09-04T06:08:00.001+08:00

Today, i wander in my memory
I’m pasing around on the end of this way
You’re still holding me tightly, even though i can’t see you any more
I’m losing my way again

I’m praying to the sky i want see you and hold you more
that i want to see you and hold you more
It can’t be if it’s not you
i can’t be without you

it’s okay if i’m hurt for a day and a year like this
it’s fine even if my heart’s hurts
yes because i’m just in love with you
i cannot send you away one more time

i can’t live without you
it can’t be if it’s not you
i can’t be without you

it’s okay if i’m hurt for a day and a year like this
it’s fine even if my heart’s hurts
yes because i’m just in love with you

my bruised heart
is screaming to me to find you

where are you?
can’t you hear my voice?

to me…
if i live my life again
if i’m born over and over again
i can’t live without you for a day

You’re the one i will keep
you’re the one i will love
i’m…yes because i’m happy enough if i could be with you

saya sayang la family

2010-09-03T22:51:00.002+08:00

ok...sudah lama tidak berblog..kali ni,rase nak berblog coz rase cam happie je
alhamdulillah,jam 7 ptg td,saya ayah n liyana telah selamat smpai ke rumah di kuala pilah...

alkisah hari ini,abis kelas awal n then bawak kete wanie anta die ngn solehah p sek17..then anta kete wanie balik ke baiduri..from baiduri,amek bas ke mawar..smpai mawar at 1.15...then i take a short nap..at 2.30 ayah arrived to send the car..then drop ayah ke fsbu. then aku load barang aku n yana dalam kete, p ke intec utk pick up angah...then,anta die ke kolej die utk amek barang2 die..after that,anta die p ktm coz die nak hangout ngn kawan die sok..so,die hanya akan pulang ke pilah by sunday...lantak la ...

so,balik je..juadah dah tersedia..again,kari kambing favorite aku with cekodok. then putu mayam and also tauhu sumbat..sedap..makan ngn air lychee..wohooo...then, aku usha2 baju raya aku..terkejut aku ngn design die(coz aku xpilih bju raya,..mama yg pilihkan)..corak die a little bit matured..i expect for a bit younger..lantakla..

then,time ayah p terawih..borak2 la pasal nak kemana sok,lusa n so on...tetiba mama ajak p pekan jap tgok bazaar kat situ..then kami singgah ke fav kedai bju kurung mak aku..tgh die pilih2 baju..die choose satu baju ni,mcam lawa la..die chose for me..aku try kaindie je..seems fine..then mama trus beli
balik umah try,baju lak xmuat..end up.mama kebas baju 2..xkisahla

so,sok aku nak ke kedai tudung utk cari tudung merah(hahaha..xpernah2 merah)

what is so special about today is that
a realised yg aku dh grown up rupe2 nyer...
anak mama n ayah dah 20 rupanyer..
bukan lagi budak kecil yg kuat berceloteh..
td aku tersenyum sorang2,bila mama panggil aku utk tolong die kat dapor..
aku terpikir...apelah dalam fikiran mama..
anak2 die dh besar
bukan kecik2 cam dlu lagi..
nakal,selekeh,degil...
aku tersenyum sorang2...

and the best thing, stiap kali aku blek umah
mama dh siap plan utk aku...
die akan gtaw la,yg we should go here there...
well,i just realised that she need company...well,ika still kecik n remaja..lain skit perangai die
angah lak suka buat hal sdiri
aku je la yg baik...dr kecik smpai besar,apa makpak aku kate..aku ikot..
so, makin aku membesar,makin spent more time ngn mama aku...
ikot je plan die nak ke mana
jadi driver die
dgr die bercerita
best...though tired..
but i love it

sok,nak gunting rambut,warna rambut(opps) and cari tudung
then ptg nak ke bahau bawak ika cari barang die n beli pizza as die nak sgt pizza(ngidam katenyer)

2je kot for today
salam lebaran la buat sume even masih awal lagi k

shopping with family

2010-08-29T19:54:00.002+08:00

k...tetiba ade mood utk update blog!..yeehaa

so,lastnite tidur lambt and pagi td suprisingly adik2 aku bgon awal
nak shopping sakan katanyer...
aku yg plg lewat bangon
so everybody is waiting for me

plan awal mau ke jj melaka( the biggest in asia)
but then,ayah terpedaya dgn promosi kat subang parade...
then kami pun pegi ke sana
smpai2 ke sana
indah khabar dari rupa..
sales ok la,but then...aku dislike!

so,pusing2 and adik2 aku ngabis duit kat fav outlet depa
VOIR...bukan aku nye fav place
saya xsuke bazir2 ni

then kami singgah ke outlet tropicana life and i've found gile meletop nye sneakers
unfortunately,aku teragak2 nak beli
att the end,aku pulang dgn tgn kosong..sadis dowh
ayah,mama n adik2 aku sume memborong
aku je cam xde perasaan nak beli ape2
t la,nex week kuar ngn yana ke jj semban,aku cri la ape2 yg patot

apak aku provide 200 each utk raya ni
dia kata beli ape2 yg kami suka..die xnak masok cmpur
die just bg duit je..
aku je xbeli ape2 agy
malas nak cri kasut raya..cdg pakai kasut croc time kuliah 2 je,or kasut mpg..cukop arr
cdg nak guna duit 2 nak beli tudung la
kne tgu lak bju raya,coz aku xtaw baju raya aku cmner
mama yang pilih...aku on
hehehe..aku memg dr dulu lagi,sume brg aku mama yg pilih..

so,after selesai ke subang,kami ke sek 18 utk antar angah balek
ptg ni die nak p merayap ngn geng2 die
aku lak,malas nak balek awal
so,balek la pilah
sok pagi2 cm biasa bru blek shah alam
cian yana...
xpe,falihin ade..hehehe

so,sok ade kelas cm biase
then kelas kami nak buat outing.
nak p tropicana utk iftar dan tgok step up 3...konpem aku tido nyer
mula2 teragak2 nak p,tp memandangkan selasa cuti and aku bercadang utk gunakan sepenuh masa utk buat kerja..therefore,aku enjoy la sket(bukan senang aku nak kata ya...hahahahaha)

2 je la kot
lappy saya dh dpt bateri baru
mahal la weyh..300+++
tp baik beli,drpd kuar thousands utk laptop baru
dlu cdg nak laptop baru
tp sayang arr..
so beli la bateri..
tgok arr..lagi setahun ke tukar baru

xsabar nak dpt kamera baru ni
ayah kata nak belikan dslr nye kam...hihihihi
mintak2 dpt
ayah tgh suh uci carikan kat jepun..wohooo

so,nex week agak buzie
rabu aku msok math competition..
so,kene buat revision
jumaat ade presentation bel
tiiidakkkk
memg kne prepare tol2
so,nex week pack
kuar pun sok je..
pas 2 terperap je la

xsabar nak cuti raya
nak rehat penoh2

definitely....saya bukan baik pown

2010-08-29T00:18:00.001+08:00

dh habis pkir!
memg aku ni jahat...xperimanusia
xpikir pasal orang lain
self fish...asyik2 jual ikan je..
xde bende lain nak jual
selfish

oleh kerana affiliation need aku terhadap keluarga,aku neglect org sekeliling

kepada semua yg menjemput sy berbuka bersama sejak dari first smpai now,sorry kerana xjoin coz saya selfish..saya pentingkan diri..saya xsuka bergaul..itu saya.salah saya..saya lebihkan family saya..saya lebihkan ketenangan saya berbanding lain..maaf

kepd aar,n psscm juga..maaf kerana gagal menghadirkan diri ke iftar pada hari ini dan esok
sengaja / x...ntah la...
yang saya tahu,saya ingin bersama family at this current moment..itu saja
klu dpt faham...timaceh!

kepada phai: thanxxx beb..ko je la paham aku

i am not a nice person

2010-08-28T23:03:00.002+08:00

i know...td kate xde mood nak tulis..
just nak tulis ini je...coz aku akan rase tenang

i am not a good person
not a good member of a group..
never stay till the end
i quit perfact
i rest from silat..
i am not a nice person!

i am not a nice fren 2
i like to hurt their feeling
i like to play with revenge
i like to give cold treatment
i am not a nice fren

dunno y,everytime i'm with...my heart never at ease!
i kept getting angry,annoyed,irritated..
rase cam nak cekik,bunuh ko pun ade gak
i'm sorry...
i am not a nice one
i get bored easily...
sorry

last 2 weeks i dream of sumone...and she told me this about us
" maybe u guys are not meant to be best fren...close fren..u're just meant to a good fren but not a close it..from a distance,u may look close,but reality check...u guys are not compatible..u guys just need each other..thats all..but not meant as a close fren"

what a waste...

no mood

2010-08-28T22:24:00.000+08:00

aku skung dh xde mood nak conteng2 blog ni...
xtaw nape...kekdang rase cm byk nak dibebelkan..
tp bila dh start,rase cam xsesuai utk tatapan umum

seriusly,memg xde mood nak update mood though byk bende boleh nak tulis kat cni

sowie readers...no mood at all to update my blog

c u nex time...hopefully

saya kembali...yeay!

2010-08-26T20:25:00.002+08:00

saya di rumah
hati saya terindu kan mereka2 di shah alam
terkilan xdpt nak buka ngn korang :(
sowie...
kene balik coz satu family nak buat persiapan raya
it is a tradition for us

saya kembali
tp xtahu nak kate ape

test dh pun habis
habis la result saya oiii
jawab carca marba
uwaaa

tinggl seminggu agy b4 cuti raya
pas 2 naek cuti,4 weeks je tinggal
time goes by so fast

mcm nak kata macam2
tp malas nak taip
tggu la mood dtg k

pregnant-like belly :)

2010-08-15T20:37:00.002+08:00

i'm not pregnant...i am fat,don't look at my belly..lol
hahahah..lawak tol status ni..aku jumpe kat website mane ntah..
bile bace status ni,terasa lak aku..kakakakaka

balik umah,ya rabb...makan cam xingat dunia..mama masak macam2..
semalam je, penuh perot aku..makan cocktail,macaroni,buah melaka,kuih sepang,cara berlauk,roti jala,pas 2 aiskrim kitkat...nak termuntah den

2day lak..favorite aku
meehoon,bubur lambuk,buah melaka..
lauk lak..sup tulang,sambal sotong dan gulai daun gelugor ikan baung...
yummmyy weyh
perot bertambah buncit

klu blek umah je, mesti makan byk..aigooo
macam mana mau diet ni..kekekeke

pg2 sok after sahur gerak ke shah alam
mula la makan ala kadar je..amiin
minggu depan xbalek coz common test week
malangyer test jatuh sabtu n ahad...xdpt den nak merayap
minggu lagi satu, aku balek umah coz nuzul quran
and satu family nak shopping raya kat melaka
rindu nak p melaka satu family..yeay

today,bgon agak lewat..sakit2 belakang!
then,online pas 2 buat assignments..
alhamdulillah, maf siap
far siap
topik utk bel settle
tinggal paperwork ctu je..tgok la,klu rajin jap agy buat la
sambil buat kerja td,aku ngn ika buat puzzle 3d..bina taj mahal
memang menguji kesabaran
sakit ati aku buat
at 5 bru siap...sakit tol ati buat part yg susah
esply buat dome and tower die..sial je..
alhamdulillah,berjaya siap
pas ni,nak beli puzzle laen lak
insya allah,nak jadi kan macam koleksi aku..kih3

pas 2 smbil buat puzzle 2,mama kata die cdg nak buat game reka puzzle tu utk budak skolah..
bgos gak
pas 2 aku terpikir kan yg buat puzzle 2 je, dh merangkumi pelbagai objektif modul
leh lak, terpikir pasal modul..kekeke

bgos tol bende 2 esply klu buat ramai2..byk bende boleh tecapai..

so, 2 je kot nak cakap
angah n ika asyik bebel je kat telinga ni
suh aku stop makan la..ape la
buat ni,tu la..

p/s:aku ngantok..xtido pn ari ni..wawawaw

journal itu

2010-08-14T23:31:00.002+08:00

090110...
journal itu menerima dakwat pertamanya...and aku happy menggunakan journal itu dan pen yg skali bersama2 buku itu. happy kerana aku xperlu nak beli buku utk tahun baru. ada yg telah hadiahkan aku journal itu...komawo.
journal itu menerima dakwat pertamanya pada malam 9hb...pada jam 9.30 malam. diruangannya yang kosong tu,aku kotorkan dgn info2 yg penting yg aku terima pada malam itu. Ade 9 perkara semuanya pada catatan pertama journal itu. sewaktu aku kebosanan pada malam itu,aku isikan journal itu dgn lukisan2 merepek aku. Aku isikan dgn gmbar kartun kegemaran aku. dan diakhirnya catatan pada malam itu,aku akhiri dengan perkataan " saya ikut aje =) "
w/pun tulisan aku sgtla xmenarik,tp smpai kini aku masih boleh membaca catatan pertama di journal itu...

090210
tarikh dan malam yg merubah segalanya...journal itu menerima catatan keduanya dan pada waktu itu,catatan terakhirnya. xterlintas bahawa journal akan menerima catatan terakhir pada malam itu. slepas malam itu, aku abaikan journal itu. kerana sakit hati menatap dan membaca journal itu. pada malam 9hb, jam berapa? aku kurang pasti...journal menerima catatan kedua dgn pen dakwat biru kesukaan aku. kali ini berbeza. perasaan menulis di journal itu tidak sama sperti kali pertama. rasa sebak dalam hati. rasa macam sesuatu yg buruk akan berlaku. 5 perkara di higlight oleh aku pada malam itu. xbyk maklumat yg aku catitkan,kerana tangan ralit membalas msg seorang teman yg sedang menenangkan hati aku yg hampir berkecamuk ketika itu. pada malam itu,journal itu menerima catatan yg kurang mesra dari aku. journal itu menerima layanan yg buruk dari aku.maafkan aku. nilai mu terlalu tinggi dan tidak seharusnya aku layan kau gitu. aku akhiri catatan aku dgn satu ayat yg aku tujukan kepada orang yg duduk dihadapan dan disebelah aku.secara diam,aku tunjukkan mereka ayat aku itu.

pada malam itu, semua mimpi berakhir. pada malam itu, titik hitam bermula. pada malam itu,doomdays aku start. pada malam itu,aku titiskan air mata pada teman aku yg bersedia menyambut kedatangan aku.bersedia menenangkan aku. pada malam itu, aku meraung di bahu die...pada malam itu,aku seolah2 kehilangan separuh dari diri aku. pada malam itu, aku seakan2 terasa mahu jatuh dan tak terdaya mahu bangun. pada malam itu,akhirnya aku berani katakan pada seseorang " saya dah xkuat lagi"...pada malam itu,niat telah terpasang dan pada tika itu,tiada siapa mampu menghalang niat di hati.
malam itu,merubah semuanya...sejak dari malam itu,i keep crying...macam bangkai bernyawa. bagaikan seorang yg dh mati tp masih lagi bernyawa..sejak dari itu,xpernah satu hari pun aku xnangis..hidup selepas 9hb itu...tunggang terbalik.

090410
pada 9hb ini,aku kembali menatap journal itu secara tidak sengaja. aku buka kembali catatan ku utk 9hb yg lepas2...ironik,sume catatan berlaku dalam journal itu,jatuh pada tarikh 9hb.ironik nyer. 9hb itu,journal menerima catatan beremosi dari aku..catatan paling panjang. semua perasaan aku luahkan pada tika itu.semua...tiada satu pun tertinggal.aku catatkan semua perasaan aku sejak 9hb yg lepas sehingga tika itu. semua aku lepaskan. pada kali itu,aku akhirkan catatan aku dgn ayat " i am a nice person, learning to be a nice one but none of you are helping at all"

140810
aku dekat rumah.di dalam bilik aku.sedang aku godek2 meja studi aku,journal itu kembali menarik perhatian. sejak 9hb yg lepas,journal tidak lagi menerima ape2 dakwat smpai tika ini. journal itu sudah aku tinggalkan, menjadi satu bahan sejarah. tergerak hati nak baca journal itu. dan tergerak hati utk buat post ini agar suatu hari nanti, bila aku leka...post ini boleh ingatkan aku mengenai journal itu. betapa bermakna nya journal itu dan betapa peritnya isi di dalam.
post ini akan buat aku tergerak utk baca journal itu suatu hari kelak..insya Allah...

p/s : xtaw nape cam emo lak malam ni...tetiba terpandang journal..terbaca.tersebak. terpandang jugak buku nota 2009,tp tangan xterdaya nak mencapai coz isi didlam nota itu lebih menyakitkan. jikalau dihimpunkan nota itu dan journal itu, perit lebih byk dari manis. xberani nak baca nota itu,kerana catatan di dalamnya berkali ganda banyak dan lebih byk memori akan terkupas nanti...konpem nangis nanti.

rindu dgn memori nota itu dan journal itu.rindu

thanxxx kpd fuza bayani kerana hadiahkan journal itu kpd saya.
satu2 reason knp journal itu masih berharga smpai sekarang,sebab it is from you(!)

blog review

2010-08-13T19:46:00.002+08:00

hari ni xtaw nape..aku bace balek sume post2 aku dlm blog ni
dari awal aku start berblog smpaila skarang...tgok balik cmne kehidupan aku dlm mase 2taun ni
dari awal hbis skola dlu smpai la permulaan degree ini

tgok cmner tunggang terbaliknye idop aku taun lepas..
tgok naik turunnye mood aku...hahahaha
cam kelakar..
xsgka itu adalah aku..

bile bace balik...betapa aku gembira and bahagie bersama housemates,classsmates
bersama warga perfact and psscm
turun naik nye hubungan aku bersama dorang...
semua la..kenangan..esply ngn perfact...:(

....

2010-08-13T18:54:00.002+08:00

aku kat umah(!)...yeeehaaa..alhamdulillah...makan.makan.makan.makan.
minggu depan xleh nak balek dh..sabtu ahad isnin selasa rabu ade common test...xpe2,after common test, time nuzul quran konpem den balik agy(!)
terubat rindu jumpe ayah,mama,angah n ika..alhamdulillah..sume ade kali ini..kakakaakkaaa

xtaw nak ckp ape..setahun sudah berlalu
setaun yg lepas aku kat puncak
berpuasa di sana
best sgt2...moment terbaik bersama2 housemate..
kami habiskan duit membazir kat kandang
kami masak same2...
rindu weyh ngn korang

setaun juga berlalu...
xkan aku lupakan peristiwa ramadhan lepas..
setaun sudah berlalu...
kikikikkikkiiii

sebenarnye byk bende nak ckp,tp cm xde idea lak

p/s : akhirnye die ngaku jugak..after a year..akhirnye die confess yg die juga telah xmempunyai ape2 perasaan...die cuba lawan,tp akhirnye..bak kate die..die kalah..dia xmampu lagi bertahan...
ape2 pun,aku sokong ko k..dun forget that

salam ramadhan

2010-08-11T21:02:00.001+08:00

alhamdulillah..ramadhan muncul kembali
alhamdulillah,masih panjang umur utk date bersama ramadhan kali ini..insya allah

so, hari ini agak tired..but so far so good...
xtaw nak habaq ape..
just...

kepada former housemates kat puncak
aku rindu saat kiter berpuasa sama2 due sem yg lepas
saat kita beli lauk,n masak nasi same2
and gurau same2,...
paling best masa makan ayam percik n ikan percik
beertambah masing
rindu saat itu
rindu saat sahur same2 and syila akan masakkan..
rindu sardin aimi n syila
rindu korang semua
rindu lepak dlm bilik korang..gurau..
rindu makan takoyaki same2
rindu semua bende itu
rindu p old town white coffee same2
n syila terorder coffee yg pahit..tahniah(!)..
rindu saat2 itu
aku rindu korang melampau ni

saya xpergi ke kelas hari ini :(

2010-08-10T10:40:00.002+08:00

ok...dh lame xberblog..maap ye...saya xde kat s.a hujung minggu lepas..saya ke kedah..
so,malam td b4 nak tido...tekak saya dah perit..agak dh,tnda2 nak demam,,

then,tgh tido,badan saya tetiba menggigil xtentu pasal...nak kate kipas laju,xla sgt..then,kepala terasa berat..nak bgn pagi td,sgtla xlarat..satu badan sakit2, tekak perit and xlarat gile nak bgon..badan kesejukan smpai ke tulang..serba salah nak ke kelas ke xnak.
b4 this pernah demam tp masih larat..cume hari ni,dunia saya berpusing 360..hehehe..so,saya xp kelas kerana xlarat sgt..

nak p klinik malas...so,saya makan je ubat yana,,
minggu ni keletihan melampau,..maybe coz drive dr utara kot..
badan terkejut

btw, minggu ni balek pilah..nak smbut awal ramadhan bersama family
dgn sape lagi nak smbut,klu bukan family
family diutamakan..kekekekeke
xsabar nak balek..
tetiba rindu kat mama and adik
huhuhuhuhuhuh

sok dh puasa..cepatnyer
sama2 la kite maximumkan ibadat k...

bogoshipo

2010-08-05T23:10:00.002+08:00

bogoshipo...azliza arias,fuza bayani, kak mas, abg radi,abg mirul...bogoshipo..

malam semalam saya bukak balek gmbar2 kite...and seyesly saya sebak..rindu ngn korang.

rindu borak2,rindu gurau2...rindu.bogoshipo(!)

bogoshipo my best pren gak though dh jumpe die last week

bogoshipo adik aku,ika...

bogoshipo umah aku

bogoshipo si dia yg aku xknal...tp rindu dlm hati

bogoshipo

now kat baiduri..tgh record music vid utk crg...

leteyh

sok p kedah naek bas same2 solehah and didi

hari ahad plang ke s.alam naek kete..gilir2 drive

so,doakan saya selamat smpai...timaceh

bogoshipo(!)

dpt pn online

2010-08-04T09:53:00.002+08:00

yeahhhhhhhhhh...2day feels like awesome babe!!!
patotnyer at 1030 ade kelas but then cancelled..so,for today,kelas hnye la kelas arab iaitu pada jam 4!!!..yehaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

so,pagi ni bgon agak awal..ntah nape..
semalam kelas dr 8 till 6..mati aku. lemau aku. at 9 p dgr forum kat dataran.dpt je kupon aku cabut bilik..cdg nak take a nap jap smpai pkol 11 30,but then terlajak smpai 4 pagi..dh la tido bersama2 laptop..at 7 bgon coz dpt msg kelas batal..pas 2,xtaw nk buat ape,aku online,buat psa.
now nak siapkan maf..1130 karang nak p baiduri buat assignment ngn groupmate..hihihihihiihi

dh minggu ke lima..ok je kot..
actually minggu quite pening sket coz tonnes of assignment. but then,dipermudahkan..kelas byk xde,so amek masa utk siapkan,.yiihaaa

2 je kot..xde bende nak kate agy

kenduri venue utk melantak(!)

2010-08-01T18:23:00.002+08:00

ok...baru pulang dari kenduri di umah wan(!)
makanan best giler..berkali2 aku tmbah..udah2 la sarah..kawal makan 2..makcik2 ko dh bebel..keh3

so,balek kg semalam ptg..at 6 coz ika nak buat homework die..smpai around 7 and then lepaking bersama cousin and makcik2 aku..since cousin yg ade hanya haikal and hazel(coz yg laen balek pg ni)..so,most of my time boraking same makcik2 aku..mcm2 topik la..pasal tudung la,anak tudung la,tiub la...kete la,duit la..a lots..

then watch a very stupid typical malay drama kat tv3 malam td..since xde hiburan laen,kami tonton je la..typical malay drama..bodo je.,at 12,aku n angah tido..then,awal pagi dh bangon..tolong maktam pasang khemah..after selesai pasang khemah,tolong wan kopek petai..then aku mandi,pakai baju kurung..and help ape2 tugasan yg perlu..

so,menu utk kenduri kali ni
gulai umbut, goreng rebung, ayam goreng,ikan masin and sambal petai...
sedap beb(!)
ramai gak yg dtg kenduri kali ni
sumo duk tnyer sape aku
tau la aku dh cantik...
xmcam dlu...heheheheheheheh
saya ni maisarah..anak ujang 2 arr...xpown anak ijoi..abes cito
lom kawen,single and steady lagi..ade calon,bole aje :P
masih blaja lagi...heehehe
umur baru 20...
saya tau,muka nampak matang (bukan tua)
btw, saya sulong ek..bukan angah akak saya..saya akak die:P

then, at 2 kenduri cam dh selesai..aku pn layan tv smpai terlelap
3.30 ika dh kejut ajak balek coz die nak buat homework..poddahcitt
so, at 4 aku n ika gerak dlu naek kelisa
ayah n mama follow ntah pkol bape,naik altis
angah?
die blek ikot maktam..
coz maktam duk usj..maktam anta die kat intec coz kelas die pagi2 sok
kelas aku pkol 1030 sok..so,xpayah risau ape

so,pagi2 sok la aku n ayah gerak
around 5 am kot
ngantok seyh(!)...........

aku mahukan ketenangan...nak senyum,nak bebas...

2010-07-31T14:13:00.003+08:00

it has to be you
though i dunno who the hell are you
but it has to be you
i will know,that it is you
we'll know

there is no other

nak bebas...
nak tenang ati
nak ceria slalu

p/s : rindukan haikal sgt2..ptg ni jumpe(!)

kitchen is not ur place,sarah

2010-07-31T02:29:00.002+08:00

kitchen is not ur place,sarah...u better find a husband who can cook(!)..yea(!)

hahahaha..so,selepas selesai dikerjakan oleh ika dgn kerja umah akaun die,aku teruk dikerjakan kene buat biskut batik la tuk die..actually,kami pernah try dlu..then,ika tetiba ngidam lak..
so malam ni,at 12 bru kitrg start..

agak kelam kabut gak la nak buat..coz buat cara laen sket( ikut sayang nye resepi)
and dgn ika,yg kelam kabut..bikin aku kusut...tunggang terbalik jdnyer dapur..kah3

xpe,alhamdulillah...sumenyer settle..
sok lak tolong ika buat akaun lagi,then jadi butler die..anta p fotostat la,kedai buku la..etc
ptg lak balik kg utk kenduri...yes2(!)
masa utk jadi full time anak dara..ayu gitu

hehehehehe

p/s : nak potong rambut ke x arr..nak rambut cam ika..comeyl..ermm

post mortem minggu ini

2010-07-30T21:32:00.002+08:00

ok..kembali kpd mood menaip..actually,tgh tggu adik buat homework die..pas 2 baru nak tolong die buat akaun..ika tgh stress melampau 2..ckg bagi byk sgt keje..keh3

so,let c..minggu ni jarang online.klu online pn gune phone je..this week is very tiresome(!)..exhaustive(!)..isnin smpai rabu kelas smpai 10 malam..balek je dr kelas, terus letak kepala and tido..letih dowh..dh la the whole week ni,aku demam panas..naseb baek dh ok..

khamis lak ade kuiz psa in which langsong xbace ape2 coz keletihan gara2 kelas malam
therefore,b4 start kuiz selak2 la buku..alhamdulillah,kuiz berjaya dijawab dgn tenang hatinye..kekekeke

so,this week ade new 8 students dlm kelas..budak normal kene masok kelas kami coz kelas mereka dh penuh..that's mean,kelas dh berkembang kepada 26 officially(xclude those repeaters)..hehehe

so,assignments alhamdulillah..xde melambak..everything is within my control

2 je kot..bye

p/s : klu jadi p umrah nanti,leh x nak doa agar cepat jumpe kamu..heheheh

LOL :)...i heart my sisters and my fiance

2010-07-30T19:23:00.003+08:00

ok..home sweet home..after 2 weeks suffering kat induk with the modules and programmes,finally dpt gak balik(!)..alhamdulillah.

so,2day kelas abis awal...thank kepada puan syarifah khadijah(!)..so,kelas end at 1130..then i walked alone to mawar..sampai2 je makan lunch and watch korean drama, my fair lady..besh(!)
then sleep for about 45 mins and at 3 ayah dtg jempot(!)..

then we headed to intec to pick angah..then,start la bebel2 die..all her stories mories.ayah drive smpai bukit putus then angah continue the other half..ayah stayed kat blakang,tidor...cute je..keh3

smpai umah at 530,then contct tunang aku aka naje aka sayang..ajak die kuar p pasar malam..
b4 that kuarkan la sume barang2 yg aku beli utk mama,angah n adik..at 6,aku.naje and ika went to pasar malam..b4 that kami singgah di econsave utk beli barang nak buat kek batik...thankss to naje yg bg instructions senang skit.

then,terserempak ngn ckg aisyah..hehehehe..ngn ckg hanizah and my dearest classmate waktu kat skkp lu, hafizah. then,kami usha2 pasar malam..aku ended up belanja ika 3 selendang and 1 burger (ape kes aku baik sgt)

alkisahnyer,aku dh invest 250 utk angah sempena a level die and i spent nothing on ika..since xpat nak carikan die jersey bola, i ended up belikan die crocs,beg laptop and selendang(setakat ni la)..apakan daya.aku sayang bangat sama adik2 aku

so,2nite aku kne tolong ika buat kerja kursus akaun die..kene ajar die akaun..then same2 buat kek..2morrow petang balek kg utk kenduri ahad ni..can't wait

btw, plan family utk ke umrah hujung tahun ni cam menjadi..setakat ni aku join(kena cari duit sdiri lorhh..mama ayah sponsor ika jer)..mudah2 han hasrat family tercapai..
mudah2 han kami diizinkan sekali lagi berkunjung di sana..insya allah

p/s : seriusly, where,when and how can i found you?..i am not ready but i just want to know who the hell are you?

tired owh...lenguh owh...salah posisi tidor owh

2010-07-25T20:00:00.002+08:00

ok..penat lelah gara2 prog semalam lom hbs lagi...suck tol prgram smalam..the worst i ever attended..the worst faculty penah buat..cm bg kat budk skolah je buat..budak skolah pn bagos agy..

ok..semalam lepaking kat baiduri aka umah solehah..smpai around 6 trus asar and collapse mimpi smpai maghrib..after maghrib kami sume melantak..then layan tv and tenet..aku tido awal..tido ngn didi..lasak kot aku..dh tertido salah posisi..sakit badan den..tertido lak atas hp aku..waaaaaa

bgon td pkol 630 and bersiap ke pasar pagi bersama didi,ratna,fartin and iffa..alhamdulillah,bas on time..smpai around 8 lebeyh..disebabkan bdan aku sakit..terseksa aku sepanjg perjalanan

so,pusing2 pasar pagi cari baju tshirt utk aku, belikan nenek aku baju kurung kedah..cari jersey utk adik..tp xjumpe..uwaaa...sowie

sok dh setat kelas..and 'fortunately' kelas smpai malam utk isnin,selasa n rabu..what the shit..uwaaaa..leteyh owh...mati aku minggu ni

jumaat ni nak balek umah..mintak2 xde pe2 yg menghalang..
ade kenduri and rindu nak jumpe adik2 aku...ehehehehe

btw, pelik la taste aku..
tetiba lak tersuka lelaki yg muka cantik cam pmpuan..aigooo

teruk kene ari ni ...ape punyer program la

2010-07-24T22:08:00.002+08:00

ok...it was suck(!)..realy suck(!)..overall lom penah aku p program yg management die trok,timing trok,pengisian ntah ape2, faci pn ntah ape2...makanan je la mewah...

seriusly, bad man(~!)...even ade mpp kat situ,still like the worst..ok,objektif utk menyatukan normal n fast track memg tercpai..but then, the whole program aka tentative suck la beb..

seriusly,buat malu fakulti..buat sakit ati..we are all exhausted of waiting,doing nothing, n getting nothing(!)...letih tahap cipan..merepek2..baek kasi ceramah pun xpe

aku tau,kebanyakan faci tgkap muat je..and baru first time..credit dan syabas pada faci2 utk SETIAP GROUP JE..exclude programmer la...ketua faci la..n ssape2 la..faci2 je ok..coz korang faham..yg laen 2...memg truk la korang kene shit ngn mulut batch kami...

rules yerk kpd yg slalu pegang mike 2:

1. faci/programmer xkan condemn other faci depan peserta..menjatuhkan maruah n buat peserta hilang respek..
2. faci/programmer pun x tegur / marah2 faci depan peserta..nak buat,buat kat post mortem la oiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
3. xgunakan bahasa aku kat peserta..bajet la umur muda..tp agak2 la weyhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
4 x bajet poyo and cam bagos smpai buat satu batch rase nyampah shit la
5 xde nak tengking2 peserta or kutuk2 xmatang la..wut so ever la..nak buat cam 2,jd komander programm..bukan faci ek

jgn maen sebut pemudah cara, kalu xtau maksud pemudah cara

naseb baek aku ni student baek dtg prog tau x!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
klu x,skunk dh aku ade kat puncak alam..jadi faci kat sane~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so,laen kali nak buat program..elok2 sket ek
buat malu fakulti and organiser je

btw,pehal member2 aftas dtg stakat duk makan kat meja vip je..pehal la weyh(!)

p/s : nak terase ke ape ke..sape suh bace..ini laman aku,suke aku nak conteng ape
no names are being mentioned here..so,xpyh nak emo2

ok...faci utk sesi ptg tadi suck giler..mcm the worst penah aku jumpe

2010-07-23T23:14:00.002+08:00

honestly k...lom pernah aku p program yg faci die cam suck gile la..bajet cam pakar la bila sebut pemudah cara...dah tau pemudah cara camner,act la cam pemudah cara..aku x marah kat all faci,coz yg laen tu cam ok je..(ala,biasala student jadi faci...faci2 yg biase2 ni..buat je la ikut modul)..

tp yg angin nye,yg atas2 ni...bajet bagos je..camner org nak respek lu klu lu pown prangai cam bagos je..sedap je nak tengking la,kutuk la..come on..kami bukan 12 taun la...kami 20 21..umur lu pun xtua mana..kire bagos kami dtg n kasi respek..so, follow la golden rule..angin tol aku..
nseb bek faci utk group ok la gak and the whole batch ( normal + fast) ok sumenyer ...
yang x ok management la..and yang atas2 2..yg bajet cam dekan kot..poodah ciittt...

seriusly,ini la satu2 nyer prog yg aku rase frust sgt ngn faci..smpai aku yg pernah jadi faci and p training pn rase malu je..

ish3

p/s : hari2 balek jalan kaki..dh kurus ke lom arr..kekekeke

p/s : td mama n adik kol..sedeyh..rindu kat mereka
adik tnyer bila nak balek..wawawawa
sok adik nak cabut gigi..nak pakai braces..byk tol duit makpak nak buat private punyer
lantak ko la dik..janji ko bahagia
hopefully dpt carikkan jersey utk ika by this week..

~ where,when and how can i found you~
guide plz

summary 3rd of hell heaven like life

2010-07-23T00:29:00.002+08:00

ok..sorry dh lmx update blog. coz buzie teramat sgt and line yg sial nak mati..jarang aku nak on9 sebenarnyer..bgos gak 2..less distraction..daa

ok..dh msok minggu ke 3 BIA..wow,cepat gile mase berlalu...so,minggu xgak pat balek coz ade program wawasan..as i mentioned b4..so,saya kan budak baik..follow je

k,minggu ni kelas cam biase..i dunno y,but subjek part 4 degree seems so interesting..less stressful..seyesly..and manage my time efficiently.. less stress and i dunno,sumhow aku mcam energetic gile la..in terms of assignment ( b4 this mane layan tuto)..wow,wut an extreme change..hope it will last 4ever

so,this week aku sempat menjejak kaki luar dr induk..fyi,sejak daftar,aku xkuar2 pn dr induk ni..hehehe
semalam dari pkol 12-4 kelas free,so aku,ina,wani,and solehah meronggeng makan di sek.7 pas ke pas..aku nak cari beg kuliah and external hardiskS..ok.i've spetn for than 500..yucckkkkssssss..hehehe.beli 2 500gb nye hardisk..one for me.one for angah..yg lame,kasi same ika..so,beli beg mcm beg skolah la jugak..beg laptop sebenarnyer..cost more thn 50..xpe,investment since kelas jauh,buku byk..keh3..lagi pn byk dpt refund dr jpa..so,akan cover balik la expense tu nanti..

so,dh 3 minggu p kelas naek bas uitm,bgon awal,balek jalan kaki..kekekek..so far.ok la..nak wut camne kan..tahan je la

u know what..xde kete memg nyusahkan in term klu nak kuar ke ape ke..
but sumhow,aku glad xbawk kete p sini
sgt2 la x distract aku langsong
aku xpayah pkir nak kluar la
jalan2 cari makan la
senang idop
stresss free

seyesly,stress free cam sem 1 and 2 dlu
rite now, i can fully focus on my academics..fully 2
bgos tol la..hahaha

so,ahad aku nak p pasar pagi sama didi
nak kne cari jersey spain utk ika(deman tol)

nex week ade cmping silat tp xtaw p ke x
coz family aku buat kenduri nanti
kenduri smbut puasa, and kenduri aku tamat dip and angah masok a level
heheheeheh
xtaw nak hadir mane satu
i'll think bout it

btw : my silence is my best of showing my dissapointment, disagreement and disapproval of ur behaviour..sorry,i know it hurt u a lot..but it is the best i can do..i know u knew that i dissapoint..we both knew..i am just concern..thats all

p/s. td terkunci kat luar bilik..gara2 liyana p menara n kunci pintu. die xgtaw pn nak kuar,so aku p la mandi cam biasa..aleh2,lepas mandi..nak masok bilik.lock*!()..yana ingat die dh gtaw aku..dh la die kuar pakai sport shoes..sah2 p latihan saf..balek malam..wawawa..takut aku td.dh la xhapal no sesape..nseb bek la cuba2 no solehah n fairuz..than to jiran sebelah yg bg pinjam phone..klu x,berzaman la aku tggu luar bilik 2...mandi 3 4kali pn leh..sejuk..kecut..dh la pakai tshirt and tuala je..hehehehe
al kisah tol(!)

bye

syila...rindu kamu(!)

sakit kepala terlampau(!)

2010-07-19T21:58:00.002+08:00

okiii...dh lame gile xmigrain and i think this is like the worst ever...(!)
since sabtu lagi migrain kepala...belah kanan ni..urat kepala rase nak meletop je tau(!)
sakit tahap sial la...sabar2 ye mai..ini dugaan..penghapus dosa

quite tension this week..bukan dgn assignments or classes,tp dgn hidup and org sekeliling jugak(!)
i dunno...just need a lonely time..semalam mimpi ika ngn angah..seriusly damn miss them so much(!)

dh la minggu ni xleh nak blek gak coz fakulti nak menghabiskan duit n masa buat program..aduhhhhiii...xpe2,positif..ade sumting yg ko akan dpt nanti..macam modul semalam

xkire..hujung bulan nak balek gak coz ade kenduri..aku rindu family2 aku...(!)
lantak la org lain(!)
dh la xpat p majlis alang bertunang..huhuhuhuhu

i just pening ngn org sekeliling
rase nak bg shit pn ade

to remind people,remind ourselves FIRST(!)

2010-07-17T15:08:00.002+08:00

Antara sebab2 aku xsuke nak tgur perangai orang or kelakuan sesorang tu,coz aku takut ended up terkena batang hidung sendiri..senang cakap la, b4 nak tegur sumone or ingatkan sumone pasal kelakuan die, ingat la kan kat diri sendiri dlu

kite leh je duk komplen xsuke tgok kelakuan sumone ni..leh je komplen sakit hati and annoyed dgn kelakuan sumone..leh je nyampah..leh je xstuju and bantah keras2 perangai orang 2..boleh je.(!)
tp hati2 la sket,klu terkena btg hidung sendiri..sendiri yg padah...b4 nak bantah keras2 n xstuju ngn sumone nye kelakuan,tgok lu kelakuan kite..ntah2 same je kelakuan kite ngn sumone itu...

that's y,aku...klu org komplen pasal sumone,bantah ke..aku buat dgr2 je..masok telinga kanan kuar telinga kiri..coz org yg bercakap 2 pn same gak..cume lmbt nak sedr je

that's y aku ni klu kelakuan org tu meluatkan hati..aku bla je..buat bodo je,coz takut mulut ni celupar komplen...tup2,in the fture aku buat bende yg sama...

so readers, remind diri kite dlu..cermin diri kite dlu sama ada layak x kita nak menegur or komplain satu2 isu 2...

p/s: tgh geram ni sebenarnye:P

aku keboringan

2010-07-17T14:58:00.001+08:00

today keboringan melampau(!)..pagi td cam biase la,bgon lambt..then aku online, p dc beli lunch,on9,zohor,on9,then siapkan assignments..settle

now,xtaw nak buat ape..cdg nak buat movie review utk crg,tp xde mood arr
patotnye aku balek tau...nak p kl,alang bertunang malam ni...wawaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

personality test...

2010-07-16T20:47:00.002+08:00

Dear Maisarah Zulkifli, below are your PSYCHOLOGY PERSONALITY test result:
You love the crowd... a party animal! Too many “friends”, you can’t easily tell which among them is real and not...ok..cam pelik je,pasal party animal ni..definitely not la

You hide your emotions... Sometimes pretending to be always happy. Sometimes, not giving even a hint of what you really feel.hahaha..sememangnyer aku

You love deeply... you may flirt along and people think you’re a playboy/playgirl but the truth is: your heart belongs to only one. pembetulan..saya bukan playgirl k..but one day my heart akan belong to only one je...

You appreciate simple things in life... You hate complicating things that’s why you’re typically up-front in any aspect. well,hidup ni mudah je..ikut rules,hadapi cabaran..dah

You’re a stubborn sweetheart... You “love” him/her only because he/she loves you. If his/her flame puts out, you let go with no trouble.:yg ni ntah le,coz xde experience agy

You’re intimidating! People have an impression that you’re elite—or if not, you simply look sophisticated. You gain praises but not companions.:not companions..ouchhhh

You’re independent! You’re also risky just like the bajaken who sail in the vast and dangerous ocean to look for treasures! yehaa... i like

Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
itulah saya...terima kasih kpd mereka yg bersabar

Yourself: People like you because you are so straightforward. xperlu nak berkias2 ni..aku pn pending gak klu org berkias

Girlfriend/boyfriend: You like serious, smart and determined people. of coz...xreti nak layan orang yg maen2 ni

Relationship: You are ready to commit. agak arr..cume xde calon je agy

Love: You are very serious about relationships. ye la kot

Education: Education is very important in life. semestinyer

Job: You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance. little chance? hahaha..ntah

Success: You are confident that you will be successful. who doesnt

Afraid: You are afraid of things that you cannot control. of coz

manusia ditegur bersebab...

2010-07-16T20:05:00.003+08:00

alhamdulillah,2 weeks of BIA dh settle..so far, subjek2 utk part 4 BIA ni sgt la sedap.lecture yg sgt positive,helpful and giving us the best motivation as a growing up ADULT(!)

i'm no longer a kiddo...and no longer at the early stage of teenager. i hate to address myself as a teenager coz i don't i am qualified to be called that. i think i am an adult.

ok.topik hari ini berkaitan dgn teguran or when kite kne marah/scolded dgn sumone, be calm. don't give a reason to get mad to that person and any reason to hate them. enough is enough. cukupla satu party je marah. jgn nak ditambahkan. even,try to avoid marah2 dalam hati. bad effect lorh kat hati tu.try to calm as rationale as u can be.at that situation,try to think..at the very least effort pun xpe.

people mad at us espsly orang2 tua,bersebab...coz we did sumthing wrong and they want to correct it. just accept it. i know that it is hard for us sumtimes to hear unpleasant words, i know sumtimes our sensitivity has their own limit...but, try to be calm. try not to complain or to create a traffic in ur own mind. enough is enough...i think most of us had enough thing to think and worry rite. as for example,we have to worry about wut others think bout us,worry bout our future,worry about the upcoming test,exam,or quizzes,worry bout definitely not enough of 24hours..:P..see,we do got a lot to worry.about future,health,academic and also our loved one(not me...)..so,again dear readers, enough is enough..dont add up unnecessary thing into our mind.just let it go.things happen for reason

people scolded us coz they want to correct us. though, it may be the harsh way,but it is for our own good..try to compromise with it. we are not living in this world all by ourselves. but we are sharing it will billions,trillions of people..people,some are good,some are bad,some are predictable,some are irritating,some are worth our trust,some are worthless of our own attention. people do come to our life to make a change on it. they are not changing us,but changing our life. if we are lucky enough, that person will change our life into a wonderful life..if we are not lucky enough,still there are sumting for us to learn.

mama told me, i think a month ago...

we can't change people for who they are esply for the adult. we can't change them. we have to adapt ourself to fit with them. take our parents,aunties and uncles for example..we can't change them..the way their think(so lapok)...we can't change that..nevertheless,we still need to understand them and give the maximum respect(!)...we can't expect the ellders to come to us and greet us..they wont do that..coz that's not the norm..the young one should approach the elders and greet them..yeah..that the right thing to do

we can't change people..but our existence might change both life(!)...
so,wut to lose...people still gonna be the same
life gonna change
at least ade la bende yg change

back to the topic about menegur
xpe ditegur,jgn mudah panas ati or marah2
try to be positif..at the least effort pun xpe
paling koman pn,klu nak angin sgt..angin dalam hati
jgn lepaskan kat luar,coz u might ruin others too esply yg trying to be +ve

give and take
try to think bout other...again,at the least effort pn xpe

btw...blood type aku A...
antara sifat2 nye adalah.not a last minute person,rush2...and punctuality is a must(!)
definitely me

same2 kite sokong kempen derma darah k
alhamdullilah,misi 2010 tercapai dgn menderma darah
masok kali ke 3 ni...yehaaa

B untuk BUNTU(!)

2010-07-15T22:46:00.001+08:00

BUNTU GILER NAK BUAT BEL 492 niiiii
pening nak cri tajok
pening nak buat thesis statement,topic sentence
dh berjam aku ngadap lappy ni
sok dh kne tunjuk kat pn shakie 2..
aduhaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

nape la otak ni lembap sgt malam ni(!)
wake up la
topik senang je kot
chiropractic

thru the journey...it is a new kickstart

2010-07-13T21:45:00.002+08:00

akhirnye
selepas lama merepek2 kat blog ni dgn cite yg ntah ape2
hari ini saya nak buat sedikit perkongsian
xkisah la bermanfaat buat orang lain ke x
bende ini sgt bermanfaat buat saya
saya pn menulis kat blog ini utk tatapan saya sebenarnye
coz dlm blog ni byk saya simpan pengajaran yg saya peroleh slama ni
in case kalu saya melupakan diri sendiri
jadi blog ini boleh la memberi peringatan kepada saya
agar tidak LUPA DIRI

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

ok lets start

thru the journey
journey apakah itu?
thru the journey of DIA-FAST TRACK
aku ade dapat sumting
and evidence telah berjaya diperoleh semasa minggu pertama BIA-FAST TRACK

mungkin bende ni dah saya kupaskan dlm post b4 this
nevertheless,ini situasi berbeza

don't be too stress-free
there is such thing of stress free
manusia ni kekadang bila segala perkara dipermudahkan utk nya,mudah lupa diri
jarang2 manusia nak bersyukur
manusia selalu riak dgn nikmat yg diperoleh
so,ini satu pengajaran utk saya(!)

sama ada kita kat atas or bawah, jgn lupa diri
jgn hidung tinggi
xde benefit pun kite dpt...

bila kite terlalu selesa dgn keadaan and terlalu yakin bahawa keadaan akan senantiasa sebegitu
jgn lupa ye
ade di atas sana yg menentukan segala2 nya
jgn ego(!)
dgn sekelip mata DIA boleh tarik sume bende 2

al contoh
(ini aku xrefer kat sesape ek..kat aku)
take me as a good example
part 0ne..3.9
part 2 3.95
part 3 3.73
part 4 3.58
overall cgpa 3.8

klu dilihat pada prestasi,part one and 2 memg aku letop2 habis
kenapa
mungkin kerana ini,aku masih lagi berada di bwah
struggle nak sesuai kan dgn keadaan
aku berpegang teguh pada prinsip..etc
but then, aku jatuh
kenapa
honestly from me
aku bajet bagos je
aku xamek serius exam
aku anggap sume boleh buat
memg boleh buat
tp btol ke?

aku terlalu yakin dgn diri sendiri
erti kata lain..BERLAGAK
xberlgak depan orang lain,berlagak dgn diri sendiri
konflik dgn diri sendiri

faktor utama result jatuh,adalah aku sendiri
tp aku xnafikan faktor2 laen yg brlaku semasa sem 3 n 4
ape2 pun.aku punce nye
terlalu free to influence
mudah terpengaruh
xkuat pendirian
terlalu fragile
terlalu yakin
ego
itulah saya bila saya lupa diri

tgok result part 4
saya rasa cam kene sepak je kat perut(!)
alhamdulillah,saya masih bersyukur dgn result itu
kenapa
memberi peringatan kepada saya
Allah masih adil..
jatuh teruk,tp x tarik anc dari saya
ingatkan saya bahawa selama ni saya maen2
ingatkan saya bahawa at instant HE can take away all ur hope
and giving u a new hope
hopefull hope

saya berterima kasih kepda Allah, kerana jatuhkan saya
kerana memberi peringatan kepada saya
menunjukkan saya hikmah yg baru
membolehkan saya menggariskan prinsip baru saya
dan berpegang kepadanya
dan jgn sesekali melepaskan nya

thru the journey of DIA
i learnt
thanx to HIM

thru the journey of BIA
it'll be a kickstart
a whole new journey
i must change(!)
must(!)

thanxx juga kepada kawan2 DIA atas perkongsian perjalanan hidup anda..
saya belajar juga melalui kamu
jatuh kita,bukan selama2 nya
kita jatuh,sebab DIA sayang(!)

letih gile ari ni

2010-07-11T20:21:00.000+08:00

thanxx to uitm
hari ini saya keletihan melampau

pagi td..at 6.30 sy dh bgon n siap2 ke induk
thanxx to angah yg nak temankan coz die nak anta barang kat intec
dlm 7.30 kami berdue gerak ke shah alam
aku drive while angah membuta(!)

smpai shah alam at 9..
then trus ke annexe utk sesi fotografi kad matrix
punye la ramai umat manusia
naseb bek la byk kaunter bukak
so,dlm 15 minits settle sume

then drive ke mawar utk dropkan
printer,buku2,iron board(!)
then drive ke intec anta barang angah

around 11 sume dh settle
then drive balek ke n9
kali ni angah drive coz aku ngantok melampau

aku start tidur bile angah dh masok nilai
sedap tido beb
smpai umah safely at 1
then makan tgh hari
tgok csi ngn mama

pkol 3 masok tido
tido mati smpai 6 ptg..
leteyh nak mati

td terserempak dgn ustazah hasliza

2010-07-10T20:15:00.002+08:00

td..b4 blek kg..aku n mama anta angah n ika p jusco
mereka mau tgok pontianak eclipse:P
angah lak alang2 berdating

alkisahnyer,mama bukan setakat drop
tp singgah jap kat jusco 2
sompek lak dio beli handbag..
klu murah,xpo gak
bg dio murah la..
ish3

then,p book fair kat ground floor n terserempak ngn ustazah hasliza
ustazah tu ajar aku since form 2-4
then die pindah
ustazah tu kenal baek la ngn aku
(aku la paling popular n pling byk masalah..esply ngn kawan)
teringat lak tragedi berdarah form 2 dlu
kawan2..korang ingat x..
kah3
ustazah nak baekkan hubungan kite sume( semua ke or aku ngn...?)
ustzah buat la satu sesi kat surau n suh sume buat bulatan
then cakaplah pasal sahabt,ukkuwah,tegur menegur
then kite sume kene peluk each other

after that,ade lak tragedi luar surau..
kah3
kelakar

back to ustazah
ape yg buat aku ingat gile kat die..
2 bende

1. kene denda diri kat atas kusi coz bising (!)
padahal aku ketua kelas,tp penolong ketua kelas tulis nama aku sbg budak bising(!)

2. nasihat die b4 die tinggalkan sekolah
kate nye ala2 ni
" mai..awak belajar bersungguh2 k..dptkan straight a's dalam spm..banggakan bangsa. awak harapan sekolah..saya doakan awak(!)"
masih ingat smpai sekarang
bila aku down time skolah dulu
aku akan ingat nasihat ustazah n ckg2 laen

kumawo ustazah
tima kaseh
ustazah terbaek la(!)

mintak maaf xdpt stret a ustazah(!)
dpt 10a tu kire ok la kan
lagipun,bio memg xpernah target a
so,ape kate buat2 xpandang bio
kire stret a la 2 ek
hahahah

sayang ustazah
n thanxx for the advice

rambutan dalam english=rambutan :P

2010-07-10T19:58:00.002+08:00

ok
hari ini saya pulang ke kampung halaman mama saya di linggi,n9
seriusly,berzaman saya xbalik..kali terakhir maybe raya kot
sorry mummy

mummy?
mummy adalah makcik saya..akak mak saya
name die khairani..anak2 buah die panggil mak mi..
at the end,aku panggil die mummy or ammi

makmi die duk kat umah pusaka kat kampung 2
sejak arwah nenek meninggal, and atok pindah ke umah laen di pd..
sume anak2 duk di umah pusaka 2
makmi yg jaga adik2 n umah pusaka up till now

dlu,makmi tinggal sorang2..(die single lagi)
now,duk ngn pakcik aju (adik bongsu family mak aku)
so,kire safe sket la
cian makmi,.klu duk sorang2 bahaya lorh
dh la dh tua
telinga lak makin kureng
hahah

aku syg gile ngn makmi
aku suke klu die jerit name aku...SARAH(!)
best(!)
aku dr kecik rapat ngn ammi
sume la anak2 buah syg gile ngn ammi 2

aku makin rapat ngn ammi start dr skola menengah
cuti skolah je aku akan balek kg..
kekadang aku stay smpai 2 minggu...
aku je yg nak stay
adik2 aku balek trus pilah
so,aku blaja idop berdikari klu duk ngn ammi
coz kat kg mane ade kete la,basikal la,motor la
so,nak p mane2 naek bas je la

disebabkan malas naek bas..
aku akan menapak ke pekan naek kaki aku ni
bapak jauh doh
ingat lagi kene p pasar
beli lak seekor ayam,ikans,sayur,..etc
melambak2 doh
nak terputus urat tgn aku
bila duk ngn ammi gak la aku blaja buat2 keje kampong
such as kait buah2..
kupas buah kelapa
macam2 la..
bg makan ayam.kejar ayam
macam2 la..

sejak masok u, aku jarang balik kg
makin jarang balik lak sejak ayah pindah ke shah alam
coz ayah akan balik umah weekend..so,xpat nak blek kg weekend
balik pn,stakat balik hari je..cam td:(

aku sayang gile ammy aku
penah dlu nak bawak die p umrah
nak sesgt.
alhamdulillah,adik beradik die yg laen tolong sponsor
die dpt p 2taun lepas
masa tu aku nak sgt teman die
smpai agree la nak kuar duit sdri
tp apakan daya..xde rezeki

so,balik kg arini macm biasala jumpe pak aju,pak ucu
cik ton patot balek but then addin la demam
then anak2 pakcik fuad balek
ai,dayah n ammir
so makanan agak mewah la

semestinye makanan fav aku
sambal udang
hahahaha
thena ade tempoyak,ikan bakar n kari ayam

petang td lak mami masak bubur kacang
macam la aku makan...hahah

then td singgah umah nek ngah
hahaha..kelakar kot
nek ngah dh xcam aku
nek ngah kata makin lawa lak cucu ni..:)
malu i
leh lak nek ngah tnye depan2 mama aku
" dh bertunang ke"
adushhh
mama gelak je
aku terus la jawab
" muda lagi nek...blaja pun xhbs agy ni..lambat agy"..
huhuhu

then b4 balek td,p la kutip2 buah rambutan
rambutan kuning sedap
tgh2 kutip 2 puas la den mikirkan ape nama rambutan dlm english
rupe2 rambutan gak...
bodoh la sarah ni

i like balik kampung
org akan panggil saya SARAH
saya suke
kelakar je dayah n amir panggil aku sarah td
dh lame xdgr orang panggil sarah

p/s : first time td mama bg bawak kete altis..best owh...

home sweet home

2010-07-09T19:32:00.002+08:00

home
sweet
home
:P
:D

balik dgn sape?
dgn ayah n angah
best sgt2
ayah drive half
another half
aku sambong:P

best balek same2

btw, bru dpt email dr one of my pren,ade a few quotes pasal frenship..reality situation about frenship..macam best owh..t kalu sempat aku share kan korang ek

akhirnye

2010-07-08T21:08:00.000+08:00

seyesly...line cam sial je kat cni
susah gile nak online
kang kok xpat on9,aku manjang tgok movie je

skunk tgh angin ngn hep
ngok tol
byk bnde lak die nak utk daftar ni
bukan nak gtaw awal2
xpaham ke yg kami ni penerapan fast track
bru je dpt surat tawaran smalam la(!)
result pn bru dpt hari ni la..

pending tol
system cam ngok
sume bende ngok
nak online pun ngok
laptop pun dh ngok
orang sekeliling pn cam ngok
asyik2 buat sakit ati je
asyik2 kasi hati aku ade luka
aigo

kang aku btol2 jadi cam Eun Ju yah tu kang baru tahu
jgn nak nyesal

sok balik
nak settle byk bende

overall
xbest mane duk induk
tp degree best
2 je

alhamdulillah,berjaya menamatkan diploma akaun ikut target
alhamdulillah, cgpa 3.8 dlam tangan(!)
alhamdulillah, ANC dlam tangan

saya jumpa ustazah saya

2010-07-06T20:07:00.000+08:00

ok..2nd day of new sem
quite ok
a bit sleepy esply kelas CRG
teori kelas
byk kelas teori utk sem ni
aigoo

so, td masok kelas PSA kat dk
bersama2 ngn dak2 kelas b n c
havoc

then at 2,kelas ctu553 bersama dak2 b kat dk gak
tgh waiting for the lec,i tido jap
then the lec masok
ustazah
aku duk 2nd row
aku pandang je ustazah tu coz die tgh membelakangkan aku
then as she turned around
omg
ustazah skolah aku
ustazah mahfuzah
ustazah yg aku rpat gile waktu skolh dlu
aigoo
terkejut aku
aku memg harap xpat die
tp alih2 dpt die

then as die tgh screen the hall
terpandang la kami
die terkejut gak
then kami senyum je la

hahaha
ustazah akan ajar aku utk the whole sem
wut a life
i miss her so much kot
fav ustazah aku time skola dlu
byk gile tolong aku

btw,congrtz to ustazah
she's expecting her first child:)

1st day BIA

2010-07-05T21:27:00.002+08:00

ok...
today is the first day for BIA
bachelor in accountancy
konklusi:..migrain aku(!)

bukan sebab ramai manusia
tp migrain sebab system uitm yg ngok
migrain sebab menunggu dlm kelas smpai petang
alih2,satu kelas je ade
pitam aku
skunk dh selsema n demam
nak tido xleh coz kepala terlalu sakit

konklusi
xbest mane
n akan kujangkakan lagi xbest
ramai manusia
havoc
xsuke

nak umah aku
nak puncak